Burn Baby Burn through my Karma

[Revolutionary Think]

So anyway I'd like to start by saying ever since I was young I was the "good boy trying to do the right thing." I didn't get involved with drugs, alcohol, the wrong crowd, and doing rowdy things in general. I must admit the only "bad habit" I had was from time to time spending too much time playing video games mostly Nintendo. I had some trouble in school because of ADHD and/or Aspergers but, eventually in high school my grades started going up and I was a mostly A and B student. I always had this thing in my head that I would wait to do things in my life that made me happy after I earned my money fair and square. I had a very one track mind in my youth stretching all the way to my late twenties. I just burried my head in College and studying and the job world and didn't do much else. I didn't go to movies, I didn't even play much video games, I didn't go to the park, I didn't go to returaunts, I didn't do a sport, I went on vacations very sparingly, I didn't spend much money at all, I didn't plan outings with friends, all the fun interesting things in life I did very few and very far between. I was thinking put those things on hold and later there was a fame and fortune point I was constantly holding out for. Until one day I fell into depression that after all that time I wasn't close to that ultimate illusive goal and that all this holding out and "being the good boy" as in doing favors for other people, saying yes to them, building good will, and depriving myself of fun was going to "pay off". I was feeling like I was such a fool for believing that. All of a sudden coronavirus comes around the extended unemployment money and the stimulus checks. I used a lot of that money to just do things for fun. I bought myself a drone and started flying it around some parts of Los Angeles, I went on car trips just for fun with my best friend, and I did things I normally deprived myself of during that time. Now I have a ton of extra money in my bank account because of what happened. The job market is as open as it's ever been before. 

The interesting news is this that I am naturually not interested in going to the club, finding a girlfriend, and going to loud noisy places etc. I do however like helicopter rides, cruises, vacations etc. I've had this idea that wrecklessly spending money when you don't have any coming in is just wrong but, I changed my ideas on some of that. I have a network that's big and robust now and I never thought I'd find myself in this space and I'm enjoying it. So what I'm thinking is that since I've never been on a cruise before to plan one and go and do a whole bunch of fun exciting interesting stuff with my life and not wait for that one ultimate moment when the dream job will come that'll make me go viral or known to everyone. I will burn through some of this karma in my own unique way. For all I'm concerned this feeling of not deserving it and having to do some big feat before I earn it has gone away. I want to be a lone wolf free spirit that goes on adventures even if it means sacrificing some kind of safety net and not waiting for some elusive perfect moment to do it. I earned it now for all I'm concerned and I will have a good time. 

[Sandhu]

The thing is to make balance between your different things and calculation rightly.