Jayson G

Maturity 10 hour Report - Leo's New Video

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I woke up this morning, like every Sunday morning, and the first thing I do is check if Leo released a new video. My eyes widened as I saw his new video, and immediately got excited. But I was like "maturity" thats kinda boring. I wanted something more exciting. But I love all of Leo's videos so I knew I had to really pay attention, and I did have a slight inclination this would be beneficial. 

A bit background, I made an identity out of immaturity. I didn't even know that. Being cool, being wild, not giving a fuck, the list goes on and on. 

As I was listening, I slowly observed myself getting more and more into the video. 

Then around the 22 minute mark, not sure exactly, Leo was talking about how when you're born, there's an immediate big shift in maturity in a parent, and how a parent goes through massive sacrifice and maturity. 

My dad and I have a relationship where we don't talk much. He's very loving though. He always took care of me. He RARELY ever complains, and I complain a lot to him. I get triggered at the little things he does. He's patient with me. Sadly I'm 27. And I'm not like this with everyone. With literally everyone I'm the patient one, I'm calm, kind, etc. but with my dad I hold a lot of resent. Immediately when Leo said these things, I realize how much love my dad gave me. So I'm driving the car at this point, listening to Leo, and turn back around to go home and make things right with my family. My parents literally cook, clean, pay the bills, everything. I avoided all responsibility, and give them shit. It's honestly embarrassing typing all this. But I went home, and started to make commitments with my dad about how I can help in the house, help with the businesses he's doing, cleaning around the house, etc. It wasn't out of compulsion, It was genuine. A realization that I need to step up, take more responsibility, and done with 0 complain in my mind, instant calm realization, effortless. 

At some point in the day, I'm driving from NJ to Phili to socialize, do approaches. Keep in mind, I'm still at the 22 minute mark. And as I'm driving, after a long time I feel really peaceful, genuinely happy. I had no resistance in doing what needed to be done, the right action, that is socializing. While I was socializing, I was shocked that I had absolutely 0 social anxiety, and held conversations for long, something I've always struggled with. 

Here's the really shocking thing for me. And you won't really understand until you have OCD. I have been suffering from OCD so much over the years. It feels like every days a war with myself in a sense. I feel like I tried everything, but today, literally all day since Leo's video, I have been incredibly peaceful, a 95% reduction in OCD. And not just for 5 to 10 minutes, but ALL DAY. You have no idea what that feels like. And as I was coming home from phili, I was listening to the rest of Leo's video, and I heard him get to the OCD part, and its weird because my OCD stopped before Leo even mentioned OCD. What I noticed was that living from a place of maturity, acting the principle, AUTOMATICALLY made everything fall into place. It automatically broke the cycle of OCD for a long period. 

On a more meta level, what's been happening is I've been clinging to immaturity. Glorifying it. Romanticizing it. I noticed that is what everyone around me is doing, literally painting it as a good thing. A lot of music and movies that I looked upto romanticize it. When Leo took me on this trip realization of just how critical maturity is, what happened inside me is a lot of "cycles" broke - cycles of fear, silly emotional games, childish behavior, OCD, etc. I noticed myself becoming more of a man. I actually was always like "being a child is amazing, I have to keep being a child" - id tell myself this constantly, in many ways this broke. These cycles automatically broke. I didn't have to force it, will it, try, nothing. 

Now I don't know what tomorrow and the future holds, but I'm going to run with this principle of maturity and see where it takes me. Whats weird is even now there's nothing really exciting about this. Yet at the same time I feel a leap in growth already. It's not like this is a glamorous principle, something like courage or fighting a dragon or whatever. But this simple principle holds a lot of power. 

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1 hour ago, Jayson G said:

I woke up this morning, like every Sunday morning, and the first thing I do is check if Leo released a new video. My eyes widened as I saw his new video, and immediately got excited. But I was like "maturity" thats kinda boring. I wanted something more exciting. But I love all of Leo's videos so I knew I had to really pay attention, and I did have a slight inclination this would be beneficial. 

A bit background, I made an identity out of immaturity. I didn't even know that. Being cool, being wild, not giving a fuck, the list goes on and on. 

As I was listening, I slowly observed myself getting more and more into the video. 

Then around the 22 minute mark, not sure exactly, Leo was talking about how when you're born, there's an immediate big shift in maturity in a parent, and how a parent goes through massive sacrifice and maturity. 

My dad and I have a relationship where we don't talk much. He's very loving though. He always took care of me. He RARELY ever complains, and I complain a lot to him. I get triggered at the little things he does. He's patient with me. Sadly I'm 27. And I'm not like this with everyone. With literally everyone I'm the patient one, I'm calm, kind, etc. but with my dad I hold a lot of resent. Immediately when Leo said these things, I realize how much love my dad gave me. So I'm driving the car at this point, listening to Leo, and turn back around to go home and make things right with my family. My parents literally cook, clean, pay the bills, everything. I avoided all responsibility, and give them shit. It's honestly embarrassing typing all this. But I went home, and started to make commitments with my dad about how I can help in the house, help with the businesses he's doing, cleaning around the house, etc. It wasn't out of compulsion, It was genuine. A realization that I need to step up, take more responsibility, and done with 0 complain in my mind, instant calm realization, effortless. 

At some point in the day, I'm driving from NJ to Phili to socialize, do approaches. Keep in mind, I'm still at the 22 minute mark. And as I'm driving, after a long time I feel really peaceful, genuinely happy. I had no resistance in doing what needed to be done, the right action, that is socializing. While I was socializing, I was shocked that I had absolutely 0 social anxiety, and held conversations for long, something I've always struggled with. 

Here's the really shocking thing for me. And you won't really understand until you have OCD. I have been suffering from OCD so much over the years. It feels like every days a war with myself in a sense. I feel like I tried everything, but today, literally all day since Leo's video, I have been incredibly peaceful, a 95% reduction in OCD. And not just for 5 to 10 minutes, but ALL DAY. You have no idea what that feels like. And as I was coming home from phili, I was listening to the rest of Leo's video, and I heard him get to the OCD part, and its weird because my OCD stopped before Leo even mentioned OCD. What I noticed was that living from a place of maturity, acting the principle, AUTOMATICALLY made everything fall into place. It automatically broke the cycle of OCD for a long period. 

On a more meta level, what's been happening is I've been clinging to immaturity. Glorifying it. Romanticizing it. I noticed that is what everyone around me is doing, literally painting it as a good thing. A lot of music and movies that I looked upto romanticize it. When Leo took me on this trip realization of just how critical maturity is, what happened inside me is a lot of "cycles" broke - cycles of fear, silly emotional games, childish behavior, OCD, etc. I noticed myself becoming more of a man. I actually was always like "being a child is amazing, I have to keep being a child" - id tell myself this constantly, in many ways this broke. These cycles automatically broke. I didn't have to force it, will it, try, nothing. 

Now I don't know what tomorrow and the future holds, but I'm going to run with this principle of maturity and see where it takes me. Whats weird is even now there's nothing really exciting about this. Yet at the same time I feel a leap in growth already. It's not like this is a glamorous principle, something like courage or fighting a dragon or whatever. But this simple principle holds a lot of power. 

Yeah, realizing how much love your parents gave you, it really gives you a tear in your eye. Especially, when you realize what Life really is ;), but that´s a too complicated story, that would take books and I have like no clue to what could be said there... ;);)  I myself am just scratching the surface of this enourmos meaning of being born.

Having problems with your parents is the most normal thing in the world. Good parents will forever stay parents, eventough you are already an adult. So they are quite happy if you are impatient with them as long as you have patience with everybody else.

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Maturity is very challenging to achieve.

You may think that you are mature. A 12 year old may think she is mature. Even a 9 year old may think so.

But are they really mature? Or are you mature?

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@Jayson G Great realizations. Good work!


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9 hours ago, Jayson G said:

I was listening to the rest of Leo's video, and I heard him get to the OCD part

What did he say about OCD? Could you give me the time mark for it?

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"Say to the sheep in your secrecy when you intend to slaughter it, Today you are slaughtered and tomorrow I am.
Both of us will be consumed.

My blood and your blood, my suffering and yours is the essence that nourishes the tree of existence.'"

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I totally resonated with that. Thank you :x


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On 6/12/2023 at 2:05 AM, Leo Gura said:

@Jayson G Great realizations. Good work!

Appreciate it :) 

On 6/13/2023 at 0:44 AM, Yimpa said:

I totally resonated with that. Thank you :x

I'm glad, was hoping some would

On 6/12/2023 at 8:31 AM, LSD-Rumi said:

What did he say about OCD? Could you give me the time mark for it?

I believe it was between the 50 min to 1:10 hour mark, he definitely provided some new insights on OCD there

On 6/12/2023 at 2:01 AM, hyruga said:

Maturity is very challenging to achieve.

You may think that you are mature. A 12 year old may think she is mature. Even a 9 year old may think so.

But are they really mature? Or are you mature?

I don't think I'm mature at all, that was a slight boost in maturity in my overall growth 

On 6/12/2023 at 1:00 AM, UnlovingGod said:

Yeah, realizing how much love your parents gave you, it really gives you a tear in your eye. Especially, when you realize what Life really is ;), but that´s a too complicated story, that would take books and I have like no clue to what could be said there... ;);)  I myself am just scratching the surface of this enourmos meaning of being born.

Having problems with your parents is the most normal thing in the world. Good parents will forever stay parents, eventough you are already an adult. So they are quite happy if you are impatient with them as long as you have patience with everybody else.

So real man, I do admit I let a few or so tears out that day lol when I realize just how much the love of a parent is 

I agree that problems with the parents are a normal thing, that's comforting to hear. 

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