I love meetups and city socialisers

[Chives99]

I never fitted in growing up in the countryside although it was a unique and peaceful upbringing with a loving family, but i just never gelled with my conservative peers not that i would even want to as i feel theyre to insular and small minded . i moved to a new city a year and a half a go and have been going out constantly to new meetups and online advertised social events in my city to mix with people. Where I am now is unrecognisable from when first started, i feel i can hold a covo with most people, taxi drivers, cashiers, coworkers, members of the public, I dont feel the need to force myself to do it either, if theres nothing there , theres nothing there, i dont need to hold a conversation, so with no pressure to do so it all just flows out of me naturally. I feel fully authentic, i can just let go of the need to get anything and instead just focus on connecting . I'm not counting progress that will only create the idea in my mind im not already good enough I can just let go. I can't believe it took me all these years to realise I can just let go, the mind is just so stubborn in clinging to its own narrative , as letting go leaves you groundless which puts everything in freefall.

[Rishabh R]

@Chives99 great. I am glad to see your progress.