My Weed experience

[UnlovingGod]

I've got my first egodeath on weed before I didnt even know of actialized.org and spirituality. I was always a curious kid and when I was one time high, I questioned myself, who is the I in the brain. And reality felt like a monitor without a viewer, I was just the monitor in a space and I had such absurd panic, I couldnt really put this experience into perspective. After watching Leo's content, I had an awakaning on Councioussness, that councioussness is Love, God realization and that every moment that I lived through was Love's will.

Well I took like a one year pause of Weed to integrate all this stuff. Then I took one push of weed and I realized, how I was fantasizing what my friend, was about to say.

I went to a party, smoked Weed and I was Jesus and felt like the people suddenly knew that Jesus was at the party, because I didnt say anything and everybody wanted to take pictures of me, talk to me etc. I was able to control the music at the party at my will. At this party there was a like a street fighter console from the 90s, I don't really know, never have played it and some random dude challenged me on it. I had no clue what I was doing, I just looked at the screen letting my hands do their thing and I beat him.

1 month later I ate a cookie with some friends, I was again able to control the music and be the music, I did a lil freestyle and felt Biggie Smalls was spitting his bars through my mouth. We went to a party and I just sat there when a girl took a seat next to me and through pure concentration I fucked her. While she was doing her movements next to me on the couch and we never looked each other in the eyes.

Now I'm integrating all this...

[UnlovingGod]

For example with the music, there was guy that sat at the table, at my will I played the most obnoxious mexican pistolero song, that was about the love I give through killing him, I took my lighter pointed it at him, the lighter was like my baton for the music, I popped two times a fire, gunshots in the music. He got REALLY angry, but the music was so obnoxiously taking him all the dignity and any power, that he just retreated and I had to laugh like a psycopath.

[Leo Gura]

Psychedelics make your consciousness more fluid, allowing imagination to distort your perspective of reality in fantastical ways. In other words, you get to play with God's dream a bit. Then God reasserts control and you fall back down into "reality", like a bird whose wings were suddenly clipped.

Edited June 3, 2023 by Leo Gura

[UnlovingGod]

13 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

Psychedelics make your consciousness more fluid, allowing imagination to distort your perspective of reality in fantastical ways. In other words, you get to play with God's dream a bit. Then God reasserts control and you fall back down into "reality", like a bird whose wings were suddenly clipped.

Yeah, those experiences are kinda cool, cause you see the real influences with the Imagination, but man would it be too stressful, to be in control of everything, it's like being a president, I couldnt do it alone. For couple of hours is fun, but you really learn to enjoy the limitation of your control, it gives you so much more peace and surprise in life.