God I hate this prison

[Fred Fulton]

All I want is for my wife to be happy and free, but it just terrifies me at a physical level that I don’t seem to be able to get close to with contemplation, meditation or anything else. I feel like an addict. I feel like the desire and fear are totally entangled.

I know this is desire of oneness, the fear of not belonging/identity death. I know there’s only me that can create a solution at the root.

Can I do it? So far NOPE. I understand it I think, I just can’t feel it.

What’s the Work really, because what I’ve done so far just isn’t working?

 

XXX

 

 

 

Edited May 28, 2023 by Fred Fulton

[mr_engineer]

Do self-enquiry. Figure out who you are and deconstruct your mind. 

Ask yourself who is this 'I' who is stuck in a prison. You will see the Truth. 

[Fred Fulton]

9 hours ago, mr_engineer said:

Do self-enquiry. Figure out who you are and deconstruct your mind. 

Ask yourself who is this 'I' who is stuck in a prison. You will see the Truth. 

Thanks - probably true - hard work then