I'm in love with a pornstar, what should I do?

[Someone here]

I have a limiting a belief that I will never be worthy of dating a 10 girl . My gf is at best a 7. 

Now ,I used to watch porn a lot before getting laid (I guess every teenager and young man in the entire planet watches porn..so there is nothing weird about that  ).  But even after getting a girlfriend..I still from time to time get an urge to go solo..ya know what I mean  ? Wanking it to porn. And recently I got Into Live Cams porn(because I got bored of regular porn )Where you can chat live with the model and ask her to do kinky stuff..like" juggle your tits "  .."spank your ass " etc . And of course you pay for this . 

Lately I've stumbled upon an incredibly hot model . I pay to watch her live striping.  And tbh ..I feel sorry for not being able to get in her pants . A girl like that must be mine .that's the mindset that I have . Now .. if my girlfriend found out that I watch porn she more than likely to dump me .

The problem Is I'm getting attached to that model . She is a fucking 10. Blonde silky hair ..a nice handful of tits ..and a round butt . Seems very fuckable to me .

What should I do now ..? I even tried luiced dreaming techniques to dream about her at night.  

Honestly..one girl is not enough for me . I know because I have 4 GB of porn on my phone .

So basically I want to cheat on my girlfriend or fuck another girl.  Dunno. I know it's embarrassing to say this but I hope you guys are open-minded enough and don't judge me .

[Sincerity]

An example of a post where it only gets worse as You keep reading.

10 minutes ago, Someone here said:

What should I do now ..?

You should tell the truth to that poor "7" You're with.

[NoSelfSelf]

@Sincerity dont judge me is the worst part imo 

[Schizophonia]

lmao 

The automatic translator of google chrome (yeah i'm lazy) automatically translated the topic and translated "girl 10" by the equivalent in my language of "girl 10 years old"
I thought that sounded a little too weird.

Can you explain to me what you find pleasurable in pornography, anything that seems unrealistic or overplayed seems weird?
Otherwise why not just go see an escort? Your wife will never know and her ego will not be hurt and your marriage will be more stable given the release of your "excessive urges".

You can also drop Exemestane here and there, it will suppress your "manic" libido without causing erectile dysfunction, nor your androgens (which will even increase due to aromatase suppression).

[Schizophonia]

@LSD-Rumi @NoSelfSelf @Sincerity

The only problem is the not very "public" character of his way of expressing himself.
Otherwise try to Try to increase your levels of Testosterone / DHT / Estradiol a lot by various means (TRT, HCG cure, SERMS ...) and you will see what will happen at the drive level. 

That's what it's about, not a betrayal of a love bond (well I think)

Edited May 22, 2023 by Schizophonia

[NoSelfSelf]

@Schizophonia My god

[Someone here]

[Schizophonia]

3 minutes ago, Someone here said:

This man is happy and now free from guilt, lol

8 minutes ago, NoSelfSelf said:

@Schizophonia My god

 

[Someone here]

3 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

This man is happy and now free from guilt, lol

Yup .I feel no shame for saying what I just said.  I value honesty . I'm honestly bored of fucking the same pu**y all the time .it's like you can't eat the same lunch everyday. 

[Someone here]

3 minutes ago, Benton said:

And genuinely consider you are addicted to porn.

How could I not ? Let's be real . Every guy in his early twenties watches porn.

The thing is ..real sex will never be as good as porn . In porn you have access to an endless pool of naked women doing all kinds of sexual acts . And you want me to not get addicted? 

[lostingenosmaze]

Isn't this the same girl who's a nymphomanic and gave you so much mindblowing sex every other day you made a thread complaining about it? You keep surprising me with how far you've come from posting here a virgin, now you've come full circle thinking of wanting to go back to the virgin lifestyle touching yourself to pornstars. You're a bold man for being this transparent in the face of judgement but CmonBruh, at least have the self-awareness to reflect on your post history

Edited May 22, 2023 by lostingenosmaze

[Someone here]

2 minutes ago, Something Funny said:

You can be attracted to any cam girl you want, and have as much terabites of porn as you want, but that part is truly disgusting

You don't watch porn do you? ?

4 minutes ago, lostingenosmaze said:

Isn't this the same girl who's a nymphomanic and gave you so much mindblowing sex every other day you made a thread complaining about it? You keep surprising me how far you've from coming here a virgin, now you've come full circle thinking of wanting to go back to the virgin lifestyle touching yourself to pornstars. You're a bold man for being this transparent but CmonBruh, at least have the self-awareness to reflect on your post history

Why do you care about my post history ?

At least I have the balls to admit what is happening in my life.  Most guys have even worse sexual dilemmas that they are afraid to talk about .

 

[Schizophonia]

Just now, Something Funny said:

What does it matter? As I said I don't care if you do or don't. The way you view and treat other people is disgusting.

For the moment you are the only one here to have profaned insults

[lostingenosmaze]

4 minutes ago, Someone here said:

Why do you care about my post history ?

I mean, do you expect me to forget how your gf rimmed you and fucked you with a dildo shit I was hoping you'd post more of your sexcapades 

Edited May 22, 2023 by lostingenosmaze

[Sincerity]

1 minute ago, Someone here said:

You don't watch porn do you? ?

Lol, if only it was about just watching porn. You are paying a pornstar for it and trying to dream about her lol.

4 minutes ago, Something Funny said:

Everyone "values" honestly, when they are on an anonymous online forum. The person who truly values honesty is honest in real life, even when being honest hurts their survival. 

Exactly.

[Someone here]

4 minutes ago, Benton said:

imagination is low quality. Because an infinite orgy metaphysical sexscape is possible. Only limits on what you can imagine are placed by you. And you could be using porn to actually deny yourself that pleasure. 
If you are open to that.

Imagination is hazy ..it slips quickly out of your mind . Why would I try to imagine a hot chick when I can see an actual hot chick.

But go ahead..I give you benefit of a doubt ..how exactly do achieve "infinite orgy metaphysical sexscape "?

3 minutes ago, lostingenosmaze said:

I mean, do you expect me to forget how your gf rimmed you and fucked you with a dildo 

A lot of guys are into that shit .I'm not the first in history who've done this .

[Schizophonia]

Just now, Something Funny said:

@Schizophonia oh no, how could I say such things!? /s

It's still infinitely better than being a shit person and using polite language

It's interesting.
Can you explain to me why the op is crap?

serious question 

[Someone here]

4 minutes ago, Sincerity said:

Lol, if only it was about just watching porn. You are paying a pornstar for it and trying to dream about her lol.

And what exactly is wrong with that ?

[Schizophonia]

1 minute ago, Something Funny said:

@Schizophonia I think my posts to him explain it well enough.

You basically said that OP didn't respect his wife.
Can you conceive that a man loves his wife and wants to make love to another at the same time?
I don't even imply that's how I work, just that I manage to conceive it.

[lostingenosmaze]

5 minutes ago, Someone here said:

A lot of guys are into that shit .I'm not the first in history who've done this .

Didn't say otherwise