Applegarden8

I want to be a Sage

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I feel that I have strong desire to be a Sage.

I feel this is pretty much the only thing worth looking into. Let me tell you why.

The environment in which people live is antagonistic. They are in direct competition pretending that they are friendly and so on. Chronically jelous and in a cold war all the time. So what happens is that people will project their life on you. It would be OK if they had some insight to share tough. Yet they do not know how to be happy, but they have all this theory with which they justify their unhappiness and I do not understand that. What happens is that they negatively affect you and you have to deal with it.

So, maybe you want to build your life into something? Well that is fine, but if you are trying to neurotically trying to build something truly great, that takes decades to build and pretty much nobody will care. Nobody, period. They will have their own stuff because they are in direct competition with you. Nobody has time to see and listen to you. I mean it will be a tremendous grudgery to go trough that consistently. I know. You will actually have more people that hate you and envy you, and will spew their projections about life CONSTANTLY, and you will have to listen and endure that, digest that and it WILL AFFECT YOU. What you made is not what will make you extraordinary, but what will is how many times you were rejected and how much garbage you digested and transformed and how many people were deeply disturbed by an alternative viewpoint implemented in practice. Bottom line, it is hard and you are affected by people around you, where you live, where you work.

Maybe you want to have a partner? Girlfriend? Wife? Husband? Maybe a quality one?

Well. You know. As a man, sexual desire is very strong. I feel it's like a curse and burden. Long story short, where there is a woman you are interested on, there you have to lead. With leading I mean, come up to her, talk to her on the spot, read her, guess how she is going to respond, make her feel comfortable and yet challenged, have to do the right things, escalate, set up the date, not to be too creepy over the text, do it all over in a date, know how to sexually escalate on her, be good to satisfy her sexually. Now you have this attachment, but you have to be this attractive man so again you lead and build this intimacy just to abstain, so that she doesn't lose the interest and so now. Now she wants kids, no matter if you do or not and so on... So basically you have to do this work to rewire yourself to be extroverted and attractive, keep yourself in shape, learn some skills to have shit together etc. and learn how to read and stimulate her instinctively and regularly or she will lose interest. does not sound like being me, because here I am performing a mating dance, this is not how I act. So seems a lot like a frustrating effort for what exactly? To be gaslit by somebody? Sounds like I am not getting it guys, because I have 0 game.

So I kinda rather go the path of contemplation and happiness because I already found something worth looking. Ofc I am a functional member of society trying to do my "life purpose" to advance my sexual marketplace value and appear "attractive" and "interesting" but none of these actions have existential value and I deeply know it.

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On 5/21/2023 at 2:35 PM, Applegarden8 said:

Well. You know. As a man, sexual desire is very strong. I feel it's like a curse and burden. Long story short, where there is a woman you are interested on, there you have to lead. With leading I mean, come up to her, talk to her on the spot, read her, guess how she is going to respond, make her feel comfortable and yet challenged, have to do the right things, escalate, set up the date, not to be too creepy over the text, do it all over in a date, know how to sexually escalate on her, be good to satisfy her sexually. Now you have this attachment, but you have to be this attractive man so again you lead and build this intimacy just to abstain, so that she doesn't lose the interest and so now. Now she wants kids, no matter if you do or not and so on... So basically you have to do this work to rewire yourself to be extroverted and attractive, keep yourself in shape, learn some skills to have shit together etc. and learn how to read and stimulate her instinctively and regularly or she will lose interest. does not sound like being me, because here I am performing a mating dance, this is not how I act. So seems a lot like a frustrating effort for what exactly? To be gaslit by somebody? Sounds like I am not getting it guys, because I have 0 game.

Love has no such rules. Only a human creates this because it thinks it is a worthless piece of shit. 

But you are God, and so is your partner. 


I AM false

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Having a strong desire to become a Sage, really is a worthy goal of someone to try and become that. I agree with what you said earlier how there is this get what you can demeanor coming from a lot of members of society. So that becoming a Sage can be a lot more enjoyable of a life. At first you would think that if you just enjoy the fruits of society playing that game you will be happy in that instance. Then once that becomes your reality, one starts to realize like Leo said how there are people who are super content with living in cave for 60 years. It's a beautiful and relaxing life up there being a spiritual monk. You know, everyone wants to work hard and enjoy the fruits of society, but in reality much of humans are in a large state of contention. With humans being is such large contention you can see why someone wants to become a Sage in reality. It really is a nice, calm, life. 


"Reality is a Love Simulator"-Leo Gura

 

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