I'm beginning to feel so lost and discouraged

[Darodos]

Self awareness is key. Seriously ask yourself - WHY do you want to be successful?

I will make an educated guess: you feel inadequate and unhappy, and project the fulfillment of those psychological lacks into being successful.

This is not going to work.

You got things backwards. You are not unhappy because you are unsuccessful. Its actually thd other way around.

Even if you pull your self up by your bootstraps and become a millionare in the next 2 years, you will still be unhappy and unfulfilled, and probably by then be neurotically chasing more and more money because you think this will make you happy.

No.

Turn around and start looking at yourself. You will never find fulfillment outside of you. Work on your psyche and your emotions. Get into spirituality. Learn how to create happiness within yourself, instead making it dependant on what your life looks like on the outside.

Go into this direction long enough and eventually success might evsn find you.