Live Video of Awakening! - I Awakened Once More

[Sincerity]

1 hour ago, hyruga said:

Haha you look fine actually. Your hair is quite straight and does not look rough. My first impression was that you are a girl though. But anyway, I was actually just practicing to be a jerk. 

Aw thanks. Actually in the last weeks I was feeling terrible and neglected my appearance quite a lot. I should have gone to the barber weeks ago. I stopped taking care of my skin, indulged in fast food... at first I was scared of sharing (another) video of me here. I'm still tense about it a degree. But it's just another thing to work through...

Yeah I might look a bit like a girl due to my baby face or whatevs.  I know that.

Good luck with integrating your jerk side haha. I on the other hand am practicing being more open and vulnerable.

43 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

I never thought of that… I’ll try it out!

❤️

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17 hours ago, Sincerity said:

I managed to finally conquer fear of death consciously and go beyond all else up to that point.

Here's a fun fact. About 9 months ago I encountered "death" and I recoiled in fear and attachment to my sister. It really shook me to my core and the next 9 months were often very difficult for me. Sometimes I was randomly bursting into tears thinking about that moment.

And now I encountered the same feeling. I was lying on the floor, the fear arose in me again and I felt like I was going to die. But suddenly I remembered Leo's words that "Death is not real". I literally recalled a forum post with him saying it, with his profile picture on the left and all. I paused for a second and then I gave in and that's how I was able to reach Pure Being, see the Godhead and realize other impossible stuff. This happened some time after I recorded the video.

What's inspiring to me is that I faced the same situation again and after a lot of growth I was able to respond differently, overcome fear / attachment and let go. It's CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT and I'm really proud of myself to be honest. I'm thankful that I'm making progress and it just helps me have more faith in myself.

If You're reading this - thank You Leo. 

[Yimpa]

35 minutes ago, Sincerity said:

Here's a fun fact. About 9 months ago I encountered "death" and I recoiled in fear and attachment to my sister.

I see you’ve also had multiple accounts on here too, haha. 

[Breakingthewall]

Good video. watching it made me feel the psychedelic and  the openess. i know that feeling, when your heart opens and you realize that everything is inside, and there are no limits. Glory.  Did you also realize the infinite amplitude of this moment and what existence is? This to me is challenging, like, I can't get out of existence, ever. I'm stuck here for eternity. If you focus on that, is the horror. you have to realize that you are not trapped in this moment, but you are this moment and it is infinite. so you get up and dance. This moment is a dance. 

[Yimpa]

1 hour ago, Sincerity said:

If You're reading this - thank You Leo. 

[Judy2]

nobody asked but...in 2020, i was obsessed with taking pictures of myself. at the peak of my illness i took hundreds of pictures a day, and i'm not even exaggerating. so naturally when i had my first awakening around that time, i had to document that as well - but i'm not sure if this is something worth sharing because of the context of it being part of an unhealthy obsession.

and nowadays i'm struggling to take even just one picture of myself....because i look at it and go "aaah God why am i SO ugly???"

[Judy2]

@Sincerity also, i think you look really cute:) and i had a big smile on my face watching your recording.

[Yimpa]

14 minutes ago, Judy2 said:

@Sincerity also, i think you look really cute:) and i had a big smile on my face watching your recording.

[Judy2]

@Yimpa lol i just wanted to say something nice. it's not my fault that this doesn't compute so well for you guys.

[Sincerity]

2 hours ago, Yimpa said:

I see you’ve also had multiple accounts on here too, haha. 

Too? ? My mod instinct kicked in lol. At least You're transparent.

1 hour ago, Breakingthewall said:

Good video. watching it made me feel the psychedelic and  the openess. i know that feeling, when your heart opens and you realize that everything is inside, and there are no limits. Glory.  Did you also realize the infinite amplitude of this moment and what existence is? This to me is challenging, like, I can't get out of existence, ever. I'm stuck here for eternity. If you focus on that, is the horror. you have to realize that you are not trapped in this moment, but you are this moment and it is infinite. so you get up and dance. This moment is a dance. 

Thanks! I can say I understand much better now what existence is. But of course I couldn't convey it. It's amazing, it's infinite, it's God.

54 minutes ago, Judy2 said:

nobody asked but...in 2020, i was obsessed with taking pictures of myself. at the peak of my illness i took hundreds of pictures a day, and i'm not even exaggerating. so naturally when i had my first awakening around that time, i had to document that as well - but i'm not sure if this is something worth sharing because of the context of it being part of an unhealthy obsession.

and nowadays i'm struggling to take even just one picture of myself....because i look at it and go "aaah God why am i SO ugly???"

You know your input is most welcome! I'm sorry You feel like this nowadays. You can join our "take one picture of myself every day" challenge too if You want!

34 minutes ago, Judy2 said:

@Sincerity also, i think you look really cute:) and i had a big smile on my face watching your recording.

Thank You! A big smile appeared on my face when I read this.  I am absolutely certain that in spite of all You say You are really pretty. I mean it, You deserve to appreciate yourself much more.

48 minutes ago, QQQ said:

Perfect video, upon reflection I’ve been there many a time with and without psychedelics.

The best bit is when you’re silent for some time. In those moments, only silence can capture all there is. You feel as you become one with all and are simply witnessing the experience of existence itself. It feels so divine yet so familiar. You are here, and always have been here. There is nowhere else, there is nothing else, this is it.

Honestly, thank you for having the courage to share this as it’s made my day! I’m off to go buy some beer and relax in the sun

Cheers! Your post is radiating amazing positive energy.  Thank You for the kind words.

[Yimpa]

2 minutes ago, Judy2 said:

lol i just wanted to say something nice. it's not my fault that this doesn't compute so well for you guys.

Love is not merely about being attracted to someone else. 

It’s seeing that someone else as you. 

[Yimpa]

1 minute ago, Sincerity said:

Too? ? My mod instinct kicked in lol. At least You're transparent.

You’re gonna have to ban yourself too, then ?

[Schizophonia]

5 hours ago, hyruga said:

You look like a girl.

It's just the eyes

Edited May 3, 2023 by Schizophonia

[Schizophonia]

@SincerityYou are literally the male version of my roommate 

[Jowblob]

5 hours ago, hyruga said:

You look like a girl.

Bs, he has some feminine traits that's all and it doesn't even matter, actually talking or judging or caring about someone appearance is a sign of lower consciousness. Most people i've met in real life that had a strong balance female to male or male to female, were naturally very conscious people. 

 

@Sincerity Also when you start exploring consciousness within, it's even more beautiful and exciting.

[Schizophonia]

I'm going to drop LSD soon, I hope to have the realization of God.

How many ug did you use ? 

[Yimpa]

5 minutes ago, Jowblob said:

actually talking or judging or caring about someone appearance is a sign of lower consciousness.

 Could also be a sign of higher consciousness. 

You can reframe anything, but only you will know how that’s possible. 

[Sincerity]

14 minutes ago, Judy2 said:

@Yimpa lol i just wanted to say something nice. it's not my fault that this doesn't compute so well for you guys.

Don't mind the teasing  Obviously You were being nice. 

8 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

You’re gonna have to ban yourself too, then ?

I've been transparent about it from the start. 

4 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

It's the eyes

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1 minute ago, Schizophonia said:

@SincerityYou are literally the male version of my roommate 

I am your roommate. 

1 minute ago, Jowblob said:

Bs, he has some feminine traits that's all and it doesn't even matter, actually talking or judging or caring about someone appearance is a sign of lower consciousness. Most people i've met in real life that had a strong balance female to male or male to female, were naturally very conscious people.

It's okay, I don't mind the comment.  

4 minutes ago, Jowblob said:

@Sincerity Also when you start exploring consciousness within, it's even more beautiful and exciting.

Within, outside... Is there a difference.  Although later I did go more "inwards" and it was so profound I can't describe it.

[Yimpa]

3 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

I'm going to drop LSD soon, I hope to have the realization of God.

Of course you will. You are God whether or not you take LSD.

Keep in mind, though, that LSD is also not God.

[Sincerity]

10 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

I'm going to drop LSD soon, I hope to have the realization of God.

How many ug did you use ? 

I usually go for around 300 to have a powerful but "manageable" trip. This time it was 315 to be exact.

Edited May 3, 2023 by Sincerity

[Yimpa]

5 minutes ago, Sincerity said:

Within, outside... Is there a difference.  Although later I did go more "inwards" and it was so profound I can't describe it.

The realization that inward and outward are identical and different infinitely and simultaneously.