Why i cant be with a girl that truly loves me

[evgn]

Is it possible that i want to be with her just for ego boost not because i love her. She is very pretty girl.

[Consept]

It sounds like fearful avoidant, I know because I have that attachment style as well. A big part is to do with identifying relationships with a loss of your autonomy because that's how you experienced early relationships with care givers. It's like you couldn't rely on your care givers for whatever reason and became independent, so it feels like if you get in a relationship you would be surrendering this independence for something you can't rely on. 

I'm still learning about it myself, I always wanted to find a way out of relationships when I was in one and I never really let our lives get intertwined. Hopefully a more secure style can be worked toward. I think you should definitely research about it and try and get some therapy with a therapist that knows about attachment theory.