April's 30th.

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Just me, some years ago.

Edited June 19, 2023 by Sabth

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This song reminds me so much of 2018❤️

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Another old song of when I was fifteen..

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I may want to change my skate size because it's kinda big. And bulky. I gotta down size that. If it's still available in the market. Because that skate aren't typical. 

Edited June 18, 2023 by Sabth

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Someone gave us this from the beach.

Edited June 19, 2023 by Sabth

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[Sabth]

Time Lapse - Taeyeon, Lyrics translation.

It's still the same, birthdays have passed several times

I've definitely become a bit more

Of an adult , I think

Even still, if your name come to my mind

Tears well up if I close my eyes for a moment

I can see you even if everything changes

You're still in the same place

With the same appearance , you keep making me cry

It's still the same , seasons have changed several times

The daily life without you now

I should be used to it by now

Even still, if your name come to my mind

Tears well up if I close my eyes for a moment

I can see you even if everything changes

You're still in the same place

With the same appearance , you keep making me cry

(Making me cry)

You keep making me cry

Of course , goodbyes are all like this

Memories that were happy because we were together

Erasing all of it , tears well up (when I try to forget)

Erasing all of it , tears well up

On top of the welling tears

You flow again , time stops

My heart that I tried so hard to keep hidden

Quietly raises it's head

I call you again with an anxious voice

(I call you again)

Of course , love is all like this

Always the beginning and the end is different , so different

Of course , goodbyes are all like this

Heart that loved even deeper finds me and makes me cry

(Love is all like this)

Goodbyes keep making me cry

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A few months ago I was 50 now I'm 53.x . Really don't know what to do. I just want an active life. However that may be. 

That's like a whole newborn baby's weight. 

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Today I made burger fried rice. June 20 , 4:58PM. 

Edited June 20, 2023 by Sabth

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I want freedom. And independence. To do whatever I want. To drive a car. If having a driver would means freedom then that's also good.. to have a driver.. 

 

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D-lite would be in Japan this 23rd & 30th July. For a waterbomb night. It seems like the only time I'll be meeting him. Do you wanna go? But a festival seems like it will be too extreme. I wonder what he'll bring to that festival. What song. It seems like. Idk. I want sushi now. 

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Edited June 21, 2023 by Sabth

[Sabth]

I'm trying to fill up my time with valuable things. 

5:14PM Fri June 23, 2023.

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Whenever I looked at this I will remember my grandma.

I'm not ready...

I wish to go with my mom. 

Edited June 23, 2023 by Sabth

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I look at the job application apps and feel like I'm all new to it. I don't know what to do.

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I feel sorry to my teacher. For going to others who are not of my kind. I feel sorry to my teacher. I'm sorry teach. 

And the standard was different. We should never met. Or crossed path. I feel sorry to my teacher. I was introduced to this by my brother. And his circles are shady. As shady as these people I've met. I shall never leave my teacher. I shall never go to others. 

Now I feel bad. Somehow. 

12:01PM 24/06/2023

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I wish to go to the gym every Monday-friday for a month

. And see what difference would that make. 

1231 26th June 2023 

Edited June 26, 2023 by Sabth

[Sabth]

I'm currently buying this ;

 

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Looking at this, I've always wondered what I wanna do to my diaries when I've died away. Even as a child. Since back then, I've already wondered/think about it. As for fieries, you don't want anyone else to read it. It is just for you. And other things too. I keep my drawings and writings private. As private as they are. Only me, had read it. And it's a good memorable memory. The writings of the younger me. Or the child me. Seeing me growing up/changes. What I'm up to. It's good to look back. I love my diaries...