April's 30th.

[Sabth]

I need a lot of money. I'm afraid that by the time that I got all those money , I would be too old to enjoy those things I wanna do. So I want it as fast as possible. As next year I may not be able to enjoy it as much (or even at all) than this year when I was younger. 

 

So idk. I wanna do a lot. But it's too much of money and I wanna do everything this year. So idk. Maybe a lot of these things I no longer enjoy as I get older. 

I need about 23-24.5k $. So I don't know. By the time I got these money I would no longer enjoy these things I wanna do ~?

 

 

[Sabth]

I completed this game : 

for the first time I completed all 10. 

[Sabth]

Reflect

Know

Hear 

Understand

[Sabth]

I keep on dreaming of continuing my studies. It keeps on appearing in my dreams. Many times. 

Sometimes I wonder if I should do the same thing all over again. Just the fact that someone is giving me a task, it feels so complete. And perfect. 

[Sabth]

I really love just taking a shower and wear a perfume and just chill. 

But I am also bored. I really wanna go to Egypt. 

 

[Sabth]

My enneagram used to be 9w8 or 8w9

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[Sabth]

I love the sun light.. the evening sunlight. It can be seen from this room. But not the morning sunlight. It's from the other room. 

I've changed the room..

It's 5:05PM right now. And my room is dark so I went to this room, my older room. 

[Sabth]

I wanna skate every morning. Or jog. But there s nobody to bring me (to those places). And I couldn't drive. And I don't have a car. 

I wanna be a pro skater.

[Sabth]

I don't know what I'm thinking.

[Sabth]

Do I have what it takes to be a cabin crew? I was invited for an interview this 8 October. Should I go? 

[Sabth]

Why did this delivery guy woke me up early in the morning, only to sent the package hours later? I am in my deep sleep..

 

I just woke up for nothin. 

Edited October 4, 2023 by Sabth

[Sabth]

Just bought these things. 

My messy room. 

[Sabth]

2:06AM

I dreamed that I was running away from my fam. It was so sad. And at the end I was caught. I was even crossing the sea. Which has many people in it, including my first sister & her husband, which are looking for me. I was almost got caught. Then I went to my bank. My university bank? To retrieve my card, which there, everyone was there. It was so sad. 

Before that I was somewhere. Idk why I got this dream. 

I was just trapped. 

Edited October 4, 2023 by Sabth

[Sabth]

I wanna run away from home and achieve financial independence.

But in that dream , it was worse. I want "freedom". I saw everyone was laughing at me (my father). Or my mom. Unabling me to go. I was just scared for my life. Trying to convince the card person. That I was fighting for my life. The dream ended up with me trying to (fake a) laugh as hard as my mom was before. Then she got angry. Which initially was her laughing now she's laughing . As I was doing it harder. In a fake way. But I won. Pretending to laugh. I don't know what was before that. It was so sad. I was in a place. Trapped. With another few guys. Idk exactly what happened. I can't seem to remember. But it was distressing. And I was running away for my life. 

[Sabth]

Fuh.    Night dream~

[Sabth]

What do you think, would make me win? Against my family and against everyone. who wants me trapped?

[Sabth]

I sleep again and wake up to another nightmare. 

4:50AM

I am running away in a building. Locking every floor to the outside, there is my father outside. And it was night. In a darkly building. Then I go up, while locking every floor that I went to. At the second uppermost building, there is my brother and my mom. I wish I wouldn't see them. It is actually a university building. I wish I can pass through without my bro looking at me. But then he saw me. And I went to a place/room which my mom happen to went to. We're together..in the end. She closed the room door. There was several other people. It seems like a postgraduate students room. Quite messy. And we make a dish like a cracker together. It seems disgusting because there's 3 hands making it. Just tossing something in it with bare hands. Then I woke up. 

Edited October 4, 2023 by Sabth

[Sabth]

Huh? Idk why I got all these dreams.  Things that I do differently, ; a new shampoo, a guest coming over and sleep at our house. 

I also eat my mom's cook. Yesterday. And I changed my bed setting. 

[Sabth]

I dreamed that my fam went into a small borrowed car. Idk why I got bad dreams consecutively last night. Maybe it was the guest that are comin.

[Sabth]

 

2017