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How Paranoid Schizophrenia Impacts My Life - A Day in the Life

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Want to share. I think they are a victim of there own framing of reality.

Its like living in a hunted house and there's 2 ways to look at it, your a victim or YOUR the predator.

The right mindset when in a hunted house is "I AM the danger, the ghosts are scared of ME" 

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How is this post just me acting out my ego in the usual ways? Is this post just me venting and justifying my selfishness? Are the things you are posting in alignment with principles of higher consciousness and higher stages of ego development? Are you acting in a mature or immature way? Are you being selfish or selfless in your communication? Are you acting like a monkey or like a God-like being?

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This world is as haunted as it gets. I was in Germany on a school trip a long time ago. There were two guys speaking german to each other. And then one of them said my name and cussed me out in my own language. I even heard them say "lets kill him" I heard their footsteps behind me and then they were suddenly gone. This is just one of many things that happened to me.


I left this forum because a moderator has a problem with me talking positively about myself and giving advice. This reflects the forum as a whole. This place is negative, bitter, hateful and anti success. If you don't notice this that's because you're one of them. I hope some of you benefited from my posts. Take care.

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4 hours ago, Eyowey said:

This is just one of many things that happened to me.

What other things happened? O.o


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6 hours ago, integral said:

Want to share. I think they are a victim of there own framing of reality.

Its like living in a hunted house and there's 2 ways to look at it, your a victim or YOUR the predator.

The right mindset when in a hunted house is "I AM the danger, the ghosts are scared of ME" 

"Just don't be mentally ill lol" ._.


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24 minutes ago, Carl-Richard said:

"Just don't be mentally ill lol" ._.

I agree, so why are they scared of ghosts? They need to work on the trauma not the Schizophrenia?

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51 minutes ago, integral said:

I agree

Well, I don't.


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10 minutes ago, Carl-Richard said:

Well, I don't.

I disagree now that you disagree. 

It is very difficult to understand why someone would have a fear of being poisoned. It think its worth discussing. 

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41 minutes ago, integral said:

I disagree now that you disagree. 

It is very difficult to understand why someone would have a fear of being poisoned. It think its worth discussing. 

I sometimes have that fear myself, but just as a passing thought and very rarely, and I would think that's normal behavior. Any normal behavior can be taken to the extreme (because of the natural distribution of individual differences), thus some people will be plagued by that fear very intensely and which may warrant a diagnosis in a diagnostic statistical manual. There, I explained it — easy B|

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Alright so they have a feeling that arises making them scared. They know there is no reason for the fear but they are scared anyways. So its maybe not a framing problem. 

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5 minutes ago, Carl-Richard said:

I sometimes have that fear myself, but just as a passing thought and very rarely, and I would think that's normal behavior. Any normal behavior can be taken to the extreme (because of the natural distribution of individual differences), thus some people will be plagued by that fear very intensely and which may warrant a diagnosis in a diagnostic statistical manual (e.g. DSM-5). There, I explained it — easy B|

Yes but why did they take it to the extreme? :ph34r: 


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1 minute ago, integral said:

Yes but why did they take it to the extreme? :ph34r: 

A confluence of genes, environment and experiences, or in other words: statistics. People come in different shapes and sizes: some are very oddly shaped or very large, while some are very differently shaped or very tiny. Given enough people, you're bound to find some oddballs out there.


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How DIET Affects Your Brain & Mental Health | From A Former Schizophrenic | Bioenergetic Nutrition

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@LSD-Rumi I suspected this for a while, when I eat certain foods that i think trigger a histamine reaction i get way more uncontrolled mind chatter. 

Have you tried fasting for 24 hours, how does that effect your mind chatter? 

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4 hours ago, DefinitelyNotARobot said:

I'm also prone to experiencing states of psychosis when I've been awake for more than 48 hours.

What happens specifically when you experience those states?


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@DefinitelyNotARobot Interesting. Do you have any family history of psychosis? I tend to get something similar to the word interpretation thing, but it's very minor, and it's almost like I can control it. It tends to happen with random sounds like the bathroom fan. The fact that you were high on weed and that you were scared of being caught might definitely have contributed to that experience. Weed paranoia makes you do (and think) the weirdest things lol. I also get the thing where if you see something ambiguous in the dark, you can sometimes project weird stuff onto it (e.g. a tree becoming Slender Man).

I'm curious because my dad has bipolar type 1, and my little brother sometimes get hypomanic for short periods of time if he gets little sleep or experiences stress. Me on the other hand don't have any of these things (although I have experienced the hypomanic thing a few times in my life, and I did have a drug-fuelled near-mental breakdown in my late teens where I became slightly psychotic, e.g. feeling like song lyrics where commenting very accurately on my life, difficulty speaking and concentrating, thoughts racing, being absorbed in my own mental story). If I were to diagnose myself with anything, it would be a weak type of schizotypal personality "disorder".

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