sex drive on no fap

[at_anchor]

So yeah, it kind of increases. What do I think I'd gain from sucking a dick or lose by not, I have no idea. It's okay though. Maybe if I was clear and open about these things early on, it would be easier. 

I don't understand why men are attractive to me. I guess it is just nature. I don't want to be a slut though nor accussed of making a living by selling my body, cause that's illegal. But being in a relationship with a man, hmmm. I don't know. First of all I don't think any man would ever consider me really good relationship material. Second of all, I'm not able to do this role. I actually wish I wasn't attracted to men anymore. But it won't stop till I'm dead or firm. So I have to deal with the fact that I ain't attractive enough and maybe that, I don't know, maybe decide once and for all that I will never again go looking to get banged by one. 

Ah, I wish I was good looking to become a wife, lol

I guess that's stupid. I shouldn't seek anything more from a relationship with a man than sex. But it would be cool to find a German husband;)

[integral]

One step at a time. 

Steps:

1. Job
2. After 1 month of pay move out to local apartment and try to live there independently and hope nothing goes wrong
3. Start dating and don't settle until you find a good guy you connect with, have the commitment to quickly prune does that just aren't good for you
4. Get married 

[at_anchor]

12 hours ago, integral said:

One step at a time. 

Steps:

1. Job
2. After 1 month of pay move out to local apartment and try to live there independently and hope nothing goes wrong

thanks, but it cannot but go wrong since all the businesses and people are under their sway and i cannot talk and explain stuff to others so they will be prejudiced and against me. this is a serious capitalist organized mafia that tries making people commit suicide and lose all their belongings and people.