Sometimes I Struggle with Emotional Regulation: My Responsibility

[Thought Art]

So, I just want to share some information and a disclaimer on myself. Though I consider myself relatively mental healthy I do sometimes feel strong negative emotions. During these down periods I sometimes have suicidal thoughts and I have expressed them here in the past.

I want to issue a disclaimer that I do not condone suicide. I share real struggles I've dealt with since my youth. These types of thoughts somehow got wired into my brain through either my genes or my up bringing.

I believe in honouring my life. Really, I share the negative thoughts because I want to be real and also share my progress as I go about healing these types of thought patterns. They are a trauma and a dysfunction I deal with. I think it's actually a whining sort of spiritual bypassing fantasy where I could completely replace what is with my fantasy of how I would like it. It's neurotic. I will improve in this regards and love myself more and be more kind. I will also do the things I need to do to get to where I want to go and just be patient and persistent. 

I believe in living my life to the fullest. Suicide is not something I will ever do. It is a thought I need to heal around through more consciousness, love and self reflection.

I take my role as a mod seriously and part of that is being a leader around mental health. We need to keep ourselves healthy and treat each other well. Let's make this a place that promotes the highest quality mental health we can have and nothing less.

Self Love is the most important thing.

If you could be one thing, be well. 

It's okay to have ups and downs as long as we are working on our downs through regular self reflection. 

I am well. And if you are not feeling well right now just breath, take it easy. Being kind to what is.

This too shall pass. This too shall pass. You continue to grow. Rest is important. 

I am working on always working from a place of inner wellness. That is home base. I am there more and more frequently as I improve my cognitive function through regularly journaling, self reflection, reading, direct experience, trial and error. It's a process of discovery, and it involves failure and ups and downs. 

But, I basically know that my number one goal is to love what is. 

 

Edited April 15, 2023 by Thought Art

[Thought Art]

 

[enzyme]

It's pretty healthy to let your true emotions show in a place you can trust.  I've known some people who consider it histrionic and attention-seeking but that need for attention would only happen from low-consciousness.

If it's any consolation I'm always open for a DM if you want to talk.  Peace