Journal of Jesus Christ

[Vladimir]

A Situation with My House

April 9, 2024

It's been about three weeks since Maestra and I agreed on the amount I will pay to stay here for one year and to build a house for me with a kitchen, shower and toilet. The land for the house has been cleared but the construction hasn't even begun yet. I have been feeling uneasy about this, because it has been postponed for so long. When I asked Maestra when the construction of my house will begin this past Sunday, she told me to speak to her brother Manuel about it. I approached him about this on Monday and could immediately feel an uneasy sensation in my solar plexus, my intuition was telling me this was going to be a difficult conversation. I asked him the same question - when will the construction of my house begin?

He asked me if I wanted to know "presupuesto", which means "budget". I told him I already paid for everything and that Maestra and I made an agreement. He told me the price I paid is too low and other details, like how expensive a leaf roof is, that I didn't want to hear. I told him "I don't need to hear these details." He said Maestra doesn't give him knowledge and that he didn't know that I paid for the house, he said he didn't even know about the construction of my house. I asked him if he ever talks to Maestra. At this point we were both getting emotional, I was feeling worried and angry. Is Maestra trying to avoid building a house for me to save money because she gave me a lower price to stay here for one year? The conversation ended with him telling me that I need to talk to Maestra about this. I said Maestra told me to talk to him and that I'm now feeling worried about this situation. What's making these kinds of situations even more difficult is that I am still in the process of learning Spanish.

There is a point about leaf vs calamine roof, the leaf roof is more expensive, and he keeps bringing this up, calamine may be a better option anyway, because threre is no leakage so the house will stay drier, less moisture means less mold, termites and less other things to worry about. Leaf roof keeps the place cooler though and it's a lot quieter during the rains, but since the place of my house is in under a shade of the trees, calamine may be a better option. Still, it would be good to know this before we made the agreement, I was told the house will be built with high quality materials when we had that conversation with Maestra.

I was contemplating if I really wanted a house after all at one point, because the tambo where I'm living now is so nice and is close to the bathrooms, showers and even has some wifi. So, Maestra may have picked up on that because of how shamanically connected she is. Then, I went to see the cleared area of where my house should be built and saw a huge and beautiful Renaco tree under which my house should be. Renaco is one of the master plants that I have dieted in 2019 when I was here for about 5 months and I am dieting it now. So, after checking the place and seeing and connecting to this Renaco tree, I definitely knew I wanted my house to be built there.

I don't want to be carrying anymore stress about this situation and I am getting clarity about it today.

Maestra just stopped by my tambo, she asked me how I am doing and I told her:" - bien, pero un poco preocupado sobre la situación de mi casa" - good, but I'm a bit worried about the situation with my house.

She started explaining how much work it takes to build a house, and what kind of materials and tools are needed. She said a contractor alone costs 4,000 soles and that he will come tomorrow to give details and estimate on how long it will take to complete the house. While she was explaining all of this, I wanted to make sure that I won't be paying more so I made sure to get clarity on that first, she said no I won't be paying more which calmed me down a lot.

I told her that integrity and clarity is very important to me and she told me to have patience and understanding because of how much effort, time and money is needed to build a house and that she is helping me out a lot given my financial station. I told her I have a lot of patience but I have experienced much stress because there was a lack of clarity. She told me not to worry and have patience and that the contractor will be coming tomorrow and we will know more details and a time estimate on completion.

[Vladimir]

Mastering The Alchemical Process of Shamanic Healing

These are the keywords that were important elements of my day ceremony on Wednesday, April 10, 2024:

Gratitude, love, concentration, power, liberation, joy, symbiotic empowerement, inner child healing, mastery, hummingbird medicine, receiving, confidence.

I felt the power of the icaros a lot more. I felt a lot of gratitude for Maestro and Maestra while they were singing to me, and I felt the healing power of gratitude. As I was feeling gratitude for them, I was crying tears of joy and I was feeling my heart opening to love more. I felt like when the power of love was opening in me, it was empowering Maestra and Maestro and making their voices more powerful.

I felt the medicine of the hummingbird open up in Maestra's voice. And this high pitched voice that she was singing with was healing my inner child that I feel in my solar plexus. I felt like it was healing my deep wounds of the inner child, and I felt the mother energy in her voice.

I danced to the rythm of the icaros and felt more connection to the songs by moving my body to the rythm. While dancing I am also being guided to keep my concentration because the primary objective is to heal myself. Dance and movement of my body is very powerful medicine for me, especially when applied skillfully with sharp concentration in a ceremony. 

I feel the icaros on a deep level when moving my body, so moving my body helps me to move the energy and connect to the areas of the body that I want to heal. There are also moments when I'm guided to remain still, the medicine is teaching me how to move more skillfully every ceremony. 

I'm also being taught the importance of concentration in a ceremony, and I can see where I had gaps of concentration, I later contemplate how it happened and I am able to refine it during the next ceremony.

This is a process of refinement that I have been working in the ceremony and while integrating. After this ceremony I was happy with my results and I felt like Maestra also felt it, because she happy and grateful and said it was a very good and healing ceremony.

I felt the medicine very powerfully, and the healing I received was also very deep with many great lessons, I also gained more confidence because of the level of alchemical mastery I have attained.

Edited April 12 by Vladimir

[Vladimir]

Love is the Highest Currency

The construction of my house has begun, there is now noise of hammers and chainsaws near my tambo, but they don't annoy me, on the contrary they make me happy, knowing five workers are working on building my first house. Now that I know that my house will be built for sure, my strategic alliance with Maestra Estella and the entire AyaMadre is solid. 

A woman came here to AyaMadre on April 9, 2024, Miss K. who is planning to stay here for two months. I'm saying "planning" because I have a feeling she will be staying here longer and she already said she might stay here. Her and I have a special connection, I don't think I have ever met anybody so kind, loving, caring, mature, awake, intelligent and conscious in my life. We have a very powerful, symbiotic relationship and we complement each other beautifully resulting in deep, embodied healing for both of us.

I am finally getting the love, validation and appreciation for all the love I have been cultivating in myself and longing to be recognized and reciprocated by another human being. She says "I am full of vitality", "I am impressive", she is "impressed by my intelligence", that she enjoys being in the energy and mercy of my presence, that she feels safe being herself with me, that my child-like energy and nature is giving her permission to express her true self, and many other loving words of validation. We "get" each other and we compliment each other beautifully and most powerfully. We both feel safe to practice being our authentic selfs with each other and recognize each other's beauty, gifts and loving qualities. I have known for a while, that when I meet the right woman, who is on the medicine path, things will start shifting in my favor exponentially. 

We will now be having our creative expression and integration ceremonies in the Maloka, where we will have the space to practice being our beautiful, true selfs through poetry, singing, music, dance, sharing insights, integrating our Ayahuasca ceremonies, drawing, painting, story-telling, Oracle card readings, channelling, co-creating by improvisation, and opening up our fabulous gifts and talents by being, aligning with, and embodying our authentic, diamond selfs.  

It's time to receive the precious gifts of love, it's time for love to lead the way, it's time for justice of love. Love is the most intelligent, love is the wisest, love is the most powerful, love is Truth, love is pure genius, love is beauty, love is mercy, love is forgiveness, love is kindness, love is the highest frequency, love is the highest currency, love is life, love is light, love is life force, love is magic, love shamanism, love is joy, love is liberation, love is fair, love is enlightenment. Love is here to rule the world for eternity.

As an additional bonus, two other women are coming here this Sunday on August 14. Mr B. is leaving early Sunday morning and Mr S. is staying quiet and focusing on his dieta. So it will be Jesus and the ladies soaking in a hot tub of divine feminine love. 

I am impressive. 

Edited April 12 by Vladimir

[Vladimir]

I am the happiest man in the world.

IHS

[Vladimir]

I’m Doing the Best that I can to Embody the Love that I am

Maestra approached me yesterday asking me for a $500 "loan", because she is lacking the funds for my house, that she said she would return in two weeks. I told her I don't have any money on me, and I really don't, I don't even have enough for 100 sole massage on me and my bank card didn't work last time I was trying to get cash from the ATM in the city. Either way I wouldn't want to loan her $500, last time I was here in 2019, I loaned her $1000, I did not receive the money back on time so I decided to donate this $1000 to her back then.

These patterns like the postponing and initial hesitation to build a house for me, bringing up details about finances, not communicating clearly of how things are to me, and trying to squeeze more money out of me are all signs that she wants more out of me than what we have agreed upon. One part of me feels betrayed and angry because she is basically playing games and this stuff is causing me stress. Other parts of me feel tremendous gratitude for Maestra, Maestro, her family and AyaMadre because of the immense healing that I am receiving by participating in Ayahuasca ceremonies three times a week and just being and living here.

I just noticed a huge shift after I wrote "part of me and other parts of me". Mr B. who left last Sunday on April 14th showed me a technique that he has been using for healing, understanding and learning to love himself that saved his life. The technique is talking to different parts of our bodies and identifying those parts as parts of ourselves during different stages of life and acknowledging those feelings so that those parts of us feel heard and understood. Identifying these parts that get triggered in our body and what feelings and sensations are present help us understand that we are not a single part but a complex system of parts that make up the whole. This approach removes identifying ourselves as a negative feeling such as anger and fear that arises and begins the healing process of that part of us that was wounded during our life.

I noticed a powerful shift in my body after remembering this technique and I had to process it and finish this journal later. As a result, I am now feeling compassion for Maestra because she is doing the best that she can to provide for her large family and keep AyaMadre going. At the same time, I am doing the best that I can to ensure my one year stay here and that my house will be finished for the amount that I have paid which is what we have agreed upon. I call it a strategic alliance for a good reason.

Edited April 19 by Vladimir

[Vladimir]

The Joy of Conscious Movement

I'm starting to get into a more disciplined routine here at AyaMadre. I wake up around 6am as it begins to get light. I first drink Renaco master plant in the morning l, which is part of my dieta at this time, it gives me physical strength and I feel like it's healing my body's pain and tension. I do my conscious movement right after drinking Renaco, connecting with the medicine and listening to the intelligence of my body. My body is getting naturally stronger without putting in much effort, I am noticing that I am becoming stronger, more flexible and cut. The plants are working their magic in my body and the conscious movement routine that I have been doing everyday is helping me to get to know my body even better everyday. I am now unlocking the master of martial arts, that has been dormant within me for a long time, which magic mushrooms and Ayahuasca kept showing me on my trips.

What's magical and beautiful about my way of mastering my body and the conscious exercise routine I am developing is that I am actually able to enjoy it. I want to keep strengthening my body and unlocking new moves and more flexibility because I want to, it brings me joy and there are many health benefits. Contrast that to my workout routine in my twenties, before psychedelics when I lived in the matrix - I experienced so much pain and exhaustion at the gym that my whole body would be in pain after a workout and all I could do after coming home is crash on the bed and take an hour long nap. My body has taken years to recover from the shock, trauma and pain I have caused myself by working the weights in the gym and I feel like I'm still recovering from it on some level.

Mostly though, moving is becoming more joyful, graceful and easy everyday as I am unlocking my true body's potential and mastering movement. The plants are guiding and teaching me how to work with the body more skillfully and intelligently. I am getting to know and feeling every muscle in my body and I am able to work those muscles by tensing them up and doing simple body weight exercises and movements that I have developed by listening to my body's intuition. I am becoming conscious of my body while doing any activity and learning beauty, ease, grace, balance and presence of wholistic, conscious movement.

I also combine conscious movement with self massage which helps me gain hand and arm strength, dissolve any pain or tension and get to know my body more. As a result my body is thanking me for taking such great, loving care of it and it's becoming more joyful to be in this magnificent, magical body everyday.

What a joy it is to be in a healthy human body.

 

Edited April 21 by Vladimir

[Vladimir]

The Best Investment 

While having my first 5g heroic dose magic mushroom trip, sitting on a computer chair in a dark closet, in my studio apartment in La Mesa, on March 21, 2017, I felt like I was going to die, and one of the things that came up for me was, my big safe full of gold and silver bar and coin savings, worth approximately $500,000, including off-shore physical silver investments I had at the time. I felt disappointed, that I wouldn't have the chance to spend that money, as I felt detachment and letting go of what was important to me at that time. I also felt like Scrooge McDuck who has been greedily sitting on a stash of wealth.

And here I am in the jungle of Iquitos, Peru, 7 years later, with $2,142.02 remaining in my bank account, at the time of this writing, with the only source of income being about $150 a month coming in from my Clever Techie YouTube channel. 

What happened is, I have fully devoted all of my time and energy to my spiritual journey for these last 7 years, working with psychedelics, self understanding and development. My journey, during these 7 years, has been absolutely epic and heroic, and it also cost me about $500,000. The good news about my financial situation this time is that I don't have any bills, I have paid to stay here at AyaMadre for one year, and my first house is in the process of being built here. 

Even better news this time, is that I have won the Holy Grail and I know the Truth. I know that the entire Universe is helping me manifest the Truth that I know. I know that all the wealth of the world is mine, I know that the entire Universe is mine, I know that all the praise, love and glory is mine forever. I now have infinite wealth, the most precious wealth being spiritual - love, life, Truth, salvation, immortality. I now have infinite abundance. 

How is that for a return on investment?