Bobby's Insights.

[Bobby_2021]

I have been going through the first phase. 

 

This is an incredible video. I Have been going through a lot lately. Just internal stuff. I have completely detached from all social and corporate structures at the moment and preserved my intellectual sanctity for a moment. I need to make mental constructions to make the most use of my intellect. This video gave me a lot of peace though.

At this point, I am not trying to get anything done. I have to completely rewire all the dogmatic beliefs I got from being in academia for all these years. Being good in academics have been against my favor especially in a county with dirt poor infrastructure like India. We simply do not have mechanisms to reward intellectually bright people here. So I have to be a leader and carve my own path and find a way. 

But these old beliefs are coming in the way. I am too used to being in the academic structure that I find it hard to work without any such restrictions. I do not have much time, so I am trying to aggressively rewire all my beliefs and watch Leo's videos to instill clear objectives and upgrade my software.

Been feeling a little down lately and struggling to find inspiration. Although it is definitely coming up. I can sense it. I have been in this phase for a while after my previous project did not deliver as I expected it to. Going to make up for all of it in the next phase.

[Bobby_2021]

One of the most horrible things you can do to your mental health is doomscrolling. 

1) You are mostly consuming shit content or negative content which is designed to trigger people. You feel sad and depressed.

2) When you feel sad and depressed by watching the shit content, then you go again and scroll social media for even a little spike of dopamine.

3) Not only are you exposed to mindless polarizing trash, now you feel like total shit, unable to get anything done at all. 

4) You can hardly get anything done from the time remaining in the day since your dopamine receptors have already been fried. To fell exciting and motivating, now you need to match the previous levels of dopamine you were used to gettting.

5) If you are using social media or doomscrolling anywhere past 6pm good luck getting any proper sleep from all those blue light disrupting the circadian rhythm. Now you feel lousy and unable to even get a proper round of sleep.

[Bobby_2021]

I am so tired of human bullshit. I have lately become aware of the sheer size of bullshit that is surrounding my psyche and the enormous suffering it is causing me, thanks to the time I have spent in solitude.

The suffering is so high that it is unbearable. I do not have any clue how anyone would live in constant contact with other humans which are nothing more than bullshit spinning creatures. So I have decided to curb my bullshit intake for an indefinite amount of time. Which means I will interact with human bullshit as least as possible. If I come in contact with bullshit I will drive myself insane. 
I also need to recover from all the crap that been pumped into my head over the years that made me lose my authentic individual self.

I do not write a personal journal or blog so I am going to use this as my personal wiring. All my personal notes are filled with abstract Truths of nature, ironically. 

Actualized.org YouTube and blog.

Sadhguru

And Educational content that I have to watch to advance my career. 

Sg and Leo takes care enough to not go out of their way to indoctrinate others with bullshit so I could watch them. And I do have to work on my career so I am going to have to consume a lot of technical content. If I have to come in contact with bullshit with no choice, then I will have to bear it I guess.

It is making me puke seeing the sheer size of bullshit that humans shit around. There  is tons of bullshit in this forum as well. So I will definitely not be dealing with it for a long period of time. I am not sure if can read anything even slightly retarded at this point.

Edited July 15, 2023 by Bobby_2021

[Bobby_2021]

This is an excellent place to rant. Not just insights to be honest lol. 

As with my insights, they are not easy to communicate since they are hyper intellectual and complicated. A lot of ground work may be necessary to communicate them so I am postponing them to a later time when I am more gounded and whole.

Edited July 15, 2023 by Bobby_2021

[Bobby_2021]

Moving to unitive level understanding. You can understand how a lock works intuitively without using language. This is the best way to learn without generating too much suffering. Let me try it out at my work.

[Bobby_2021]

I am at unitive stage of awareness. I transcended the use of language to make sense of reality.

Today I wholly accept that you can't make sense of reality using language. Language is reality and you can't use one part of reality to make sense of another part of reality.

At best you can mimic one part of reality to look like the other part and that's the best you can do. Linguistic understanding is a fallacy.

All statements are a fallacy. The only correct statement is the mind of God itself.

If you choose to use your intellectual mind instead of the mind of God, then you will run in circles while missing what's right infront of your nose. Your intellectual mind takes 10 steps to complete what could have been done in 2 steps by the unitive mind. You will massively cut out the bullshit by thinking in reality itself without using language.

Language is bloat. You don't need to use it to make sense of reality. 

 

[Bobby_2021]

Not living in accordance with your genetics can be seriously detrimental to your well being.

The higher your intelligence, the more your capacity for suffering. The most intelligent people in the world suffer the most. This is taking immense responsibility on yourself. You cannot half ass life like anyone. 

[Bobby_2021]

Every being had to cope through life to reach till this point. I think it is quite worthy of admiration that they have made it till far even though they have been wounded and traumatized in the process.

This is a good enough reason to respect every being. This is not like you respect someone out of compassion or sympathy. I do not like that. This is a reason to respect every creature because they are a winner. They managed to survive in a world where plenty perish. That definitely needs some admiration. 

[Bobby_2021]

Create more than you consume. 

 

[Bobby_2021]

I love silence.

I love it when there is no stimuli hurling at me from random sides.

What's more important is the silence of the mind. Your mind should not be neurotic enough to hurl you with random shit throughout the day.

Pull yourself together.

[Bobby_2021]

I wish people devoted more time to sharpen their natural intelligence than their artificial intelligence lmao.

[Bobby_2021]

What goes around comes around. The laws of psychology are a subtler version of the laws of physics. The laws of psychology may be slower had more inertia and not predictable on paper. But the consequences of your action will always come back to haunt you. No energy is ever lost. It only takes different forms.