Is it possible to completely repair numbed dopamine receptors?

[ZenAlex]

Hi, I've been trying to resolve my mental health issues, and now live a super healthy lifestyle. No alcohol, no drugs, no porn, minimal junk, no video games, no regular TV, I spend more time outside and eating a healthy diet etc. I've got to therapy but it didn't do anything for me.

I found all these changes have made me feel better, however no matter how healthy, self aware, mindful I am, although I can feel some satisfaction from life, it never quite feels the same as it did about 10 years ago before the worst of my depression/anxiety kicked it.

I remember how I used to live. I had some healthy habits, but I used to video game and drink regularly. I'm concerned I may have overstimulated myself into numbness, as it does feel like I am numb to life and no matter how healthy I live, I never feel as alive as I did when I was younger.

I'm in my 30's now. I try to focus on moving forward, not looking back, but every so often I get moments of feeling alive and emotional, and now I realise I feel emotionless most of the time.

Symptoms - 

- Low motivation. If I live healthy lifestyle, I can be somewhat motivated sometimes, but by default I feel very low motivation

- Emotional flatness.

- Higher levels of irritability. 

- Great difficulty feeling stimulated by life. Things don't feel exciting to me.

If I live the very heathy lifestyle, I can appreciate what I have, and if this is the best I can get, then I can accept it and be grateful for it. It can take some satisfaction from life and not suffer much.

But it's like around age 22-23 I switch flipped in me and I felt different for seemingly no reason.

[integral]

3 hours ago, ZenAlex said:

But it's like around age 22-23 I switch flipped in me and I felt different for seemingly no reason.

What changed a this point in time? Did you have any healthy problems/digestions issues, food intolerances? 

[Brandon Nankivell]

It's possible to repair.