Is it weird that I don't like my family?

[enzyme]

I had some troubles with them when I was growing up (tldr my mother's a narcissist and both my father and step-father were hot-headed).  Even though I've mostly gotten over things that happened and I'm living at home again with them I find day-to-day life here just really jarring.

When I used to live alone I made an attempt to cut contact with them but they just kept coming to my door and crap; even after trying to get police involved it never really ended.

I ended up back at home after lockdown because I was struggling financially and the whole pandemic scenario was making me go funny in the head.  Figured it was a lesser evil to return home temporarily.

I plan on making the steps to move to the next city over so I know they won't be able to physically visit me.  I don't plan on cutting ties with them permanently - not unless they give me a good reason to - I just want to live alone again and be solitary since that's what really makes me come alive and feel good about myself.

Am I a cold asshole or not thinking straight for wanting to leave them even though they've not done anything wrong?

[John Paul]

Did you tell them clearly what you need? Like not coming to your door, giving you longer times between communication, and so on?

[Roy]

You don't get to choose your family, but you do get to choose the life you want to live.