That I can't choose my thoughts terrifies me

[Blackhawk]

It can kinda feel like I can choose my thoughts.. but I think that it's a illusion. They come from nowhere.

I don't even want to think about it..

It makes my heart race. I feel like I could easily go insane if I investigate this thing with thoughts too much.

Edited March 19, 2023 by Blackhawk

[Blackhawk]

@Lila9 Thank you..

[Forza-Spirito]

Yes it's a triggering thing for the ego, but you can also see the opposite aspect which is true freedom; now you don't have to worry anymore because the universe supports you, you just have to go with the flow!

[Blackhawk]

On 2023-03-21 at 7:47 AM, Mormegil said:

Don't worry, you will not go insane. It's interesting that your body / mind gets anxious about this. Have you tried sitting abit with this uncomfortable feeling? Maybe it will go away after a while.

Personally I find the fact that I can chose which thoughts to make my own and which ones to ignore, is the most freeing thing of my life. It simply means you can chose freely what you want to value in your life. What do you want to treat important. And what is not worth your attention? Try to see it, as a great opportunity.

It's worse than that. Maybe you can't even choose. You didn't choose to think that you can choose. 

On 2023-03-21 at 1:42 PM, Forza-Spirito said:

Yes it's a triggering thing for the ego, but you can also see the opposite aspect which is true freedom; now you don't have to worry anymore because the universe supports you, you just have to go with the flow!

You don't choose the idea "go with the flow" either.

Any comforting stuff is beyond your control too, it's just more of the same problem, but just a more pleasant problem. Do you get it?

And I know that things can suddenly turn very ugly, the voice in your head (the thoughts) can at any point become hostile towards you. It has happened to me. I'm powerless.

 

Anyway, hopefully I'm just mentally ill or something.

Oh yeah.. I didn't create that thought either..

Edited March 23, 2023 by Blackhawk

[ZenAlex]

You can choose how to manage them though