5-meo tonight 20 mg rectally

[LSD-Rumi]

I will report later.

The last time I did it, I was traumatized and couldn't let go. This time I go deep.

[Leo Gura]

Should be epic. Bottoms up!

Edited March 16, 2023 by Leo Gura

[Sincerity]

Dude. Be careful for God's sake!

Sorry but your posts in the last days haven't felt stable. Really consult your intution whether doing 20mg of 5-MeO now feels right.

It's not a race. Remember it is okay to slow down and take breaks. Please don't hurt yourself!

[LSD-Rumi]

I decided to do it now.

Unfortunately, I had one last dose from last time and I maybe overestimated it (it was sticky), so it was very small apperantely. Anyways, I have already made an order for 5 meo dmt and many other substances.

Anhways, I had this small insghit. Why is it important to realize God in your life? All people basically live their lives without realizing God and even if you are spiritual, you are not God yet, right? You are still imaging life, so why do you care in the first place? Just live your life like all people. The answer to this stupid and satanic argument is, despite not being fully God yet, you are God. What you gain from being closer to God, is peace, love and a more superior position over life. You overflow with joy and peace. You experience life in a meta way. Also you are getting closer and closer to your real self. So it is not all or nothing. And of course all people are basically idiots. If you don't treat spirituality seriously,  you are an idoiot, period.

[LSD-Rumi]

2 minutes ago, Sincerity said:

Dude. Be careful for God's sake!

Sorry but your posts in the last days haven't felt stable. Really consult your intution whether doing 20mg of 5-MeO now feels right.

It's not a race. Remember it is okay to slow down and take breaks. Please don't hurt yourself!

Dude. I am very stable. I know you are concerned about me but I am really very stable, I maybe more stable than you ?

I also did take mood stabilizers and antipsychotics for a week now, as my psychiatrist recommended.

Cheers

Edited March 16, 2023 by LSD-Rumi

[Michael569]

14 minutes ago, LSD-Rumi said:

I also did take mood stabilizers and antipsychotics for a week now, as my psychiatrist recommended.

Hope you know what you're doing - pharmacologically induced stability is not the same as natural mental stability. MeO is not a pharma drug but it does have pharmacodynamic properties that can interact with all sort of stuff

Take care

Edited March 16, 2023 by Michael569

[LSD-Rumi]

7 minutes ago, Michael569 said:

Hope you know what you're doing - pharmacologically induced stability is not the same as natural mental stability. MeO is not a pharma drug but it does have pharmacodynamic properties that can interact with all sort of stuff

Take care

I am very stable, even without these drugs,  even if had let's say mania, I have a very high level of self control, it is somethinf I have developed over these 5 years in hell.

Thanks everyone for your concern.

[Pudgey]

Great insights! 

[Kingston]

Good luck brother.

And please share your report

 

[Thought Art]

Rapid fire psychedelic use! Be careful. 

[josemar]

20mg is an in-between, can be barely noticeable or can be quite difficult, but not enough for a breakthrough. Different kettle of fish if you smoke it.

[OBEler]

@LSD-Rumi how are you going 

 

[LSD-Rumi]

10 minutes ago, OBEler said:

@LSD-Rumi how are you going 

 

Felt nothing or very mild effects. Turns out what I have is closer to 5 mg not 20 mg 

[OBEler]

@LSD-Rumi still congratulations for doing it. 

I would be nervous not knowing wat dose I have

[Fluran]

My 17mg rectal dose has brought me some awakening haha

 

5meodmt is really potent in Enlightenment work

 

Key insight was that

1.Ego death does not exist, i was looking for ego death, but it did not exist. Realising it was my ego death ?

2.enlightenment does not exist 

3.God does not exist (because i experience it, because also god is transcendance of being etc)

4.it is not the end as well

Last two 5meodmt trip were just constant laughing that it brought me laughter that i never had in my life!!

 

Socially i became able to socialise much better, still weirdly but confidently.

[Leo Gura]

23 minutes ago, Fluran said:

God does not exist

You might want to rethink that one.

[Fluran]

1 hour ago, Leo Gura said:

You might want to rethink that one.

I know it is not the end

And language always fails to explain it so

[Yimpa]

Kudos for your bravery. As a fellow person with OCD, you inspire me. 

[Breakingthewall]

@LSD-Rumi you do well, if you are in the spirituality, go to the bottom. you have two challenges ahead, accept the substance, and then accept the absolute truth. both require time. but as you said above, reality is what it is, living in deception is not an option when you are aware of it

[Michal__]

Tbh if you feel great and appear normal to people you know in real life (text-only forum interactions dont count) I would not use antipsychotics. 

You should read/watch videos about the EPRC (Daniel Ingram, he is a doctor, so you should take his opinion more seriously than my post or posts by other forum members) so you understand how this kind of medicine is overprescribed for people with spiritual experiences.

Ultimately the decision is up to you, I am just sharing what I would do in a similiar situation.

Anybody who has ever taken a psychadelic that would describe their experience and conclusions to a psychiatrist would be at risk of a psychosis misdiagnosis.

Edited March 21, 2023 by Michal__