DMT journal

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insights

 

using a vape cart to prolong the trip with continuous drags is great.

stop comparing yourself to others

drop spiritual ego

let go and relax

it’s okay

don’t judge the past

that includes the past as in history but also your own past mistakes, failures, screw ups and lapses of judgement

everything happens for a reaaon

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how could I ever fall prey to addiction again?

after all, now I am a changed individual

weed was never my problem, the problem was always fear

 

what I thought was god-realization was just ego inflation

now I know God is Quiet

Edited March 16, 2023 by Oppositionless

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my previous experiences were extremely uncomfortable, tonight’s was joyous because I said YES to it and went deep

yesterday’s trip I took a fat blinker followed by another big hit and got absolutely dickslapped. tonight I titrated, taking 3-4 second drags a few minutes apart for 10 - 15 ish minutes

Edited March 16, 2023 by Oppositionless

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think of a middle ages peasant going about their life. they live a brutal existence, but most of them don’t commit suicide. they instead create more humans who live in a slightly less brutal world. fast forward today, humans still deal with overwhelming amounts of suffering but most people don’t kill themselves and for the most part people who try to and fail are glad they failed. 

and I thought life was the problem. Lmao, fuck no. life is beautiful.

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one day I’ll have a proper breakthrough out of a bowl. one day I’ll get married. one day I’ll do everything. 

Edited March 16, 2023 by Oppositionless

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I nearly astral projected today as well. I could feel my astral body sit up out of my physical body after going into sleep paralysis during a nap. Man I wish I went deeper but fear got to me and I pulled myself out of it.

a ringing sensation similar to the one I heard on DMT accompanies my sleep paralysis. makes me wonder about endogenous DMT and what happens “after” the body stops working.

Edited March 16, 2023 by Oppositionless

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astral projection resources:

intro to focus 10: 

helps to get in the mind awake body asleep mind state required. narrated by robert monroe who coined the out-of-body experience

https://youtu.be/IeWH9u1-lD8

this is actually part two of the Gateway Experience tapes. 

Edited March 16, 2023 by Oppositionless

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to me the most curious aspect of 5 meo is the reactivation. different from a flashback, which can happen after any intense psychedelic experience. clearly 5 meo primes the user to have future breakthrough experiences, sober.

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5 meo cleans the crown chakra

Edited March 17, 2023 by Oppositionless

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I want infinite love and infinite sex

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fasting because of DMT near-breakthrough dose and reapeated watching simulation video and meditating on the experience

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It’s been about 20ish hours

I don’t like eating meat at all

but I am also very lazy and don’t cook

Edited March 17, 2023 by Oppositionless

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the real-life traumas people go through make dmt look tame in comparison

it’s such a beautiful experience.

It’s hard to believe it even exists.

God loves me.

Edited March 17, 2023 by Oppositionless

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people who think DMT trip = Near Death Experience have not experienced either

 

NDE is closer to astral projection 

Edited March 17, 2023 by Oppositionless

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tonight I will astral project. tonight I will astral project.

I fully believe dimethyltryptamine has opened my third eye and blessed me with psychic abilities

Edited March 18, 2023 by Oppositionless

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intro to Focus 12

 

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seeing the futility of nonduality and no-self

“Emptiness, Pt. 2” by Mount Eerie

The feeling of being in the mountains
Is a dream of self-negation
To see the world without us
How it churns and blossoms
Without anyone looking on

It's why I've gone on and on
And why I've climbed up alone
But actual negation
When your person is gone
And the bedroom door yawns
There is nothing to learn
Her absence is a scream
Saying nothing
Conceptual emptiness was cool to talk about
Back before I knew my way around these hospitals
I would like to forget and go back into imagining
That snow shining permanently alone could say something to me true and comforting

 

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I didn’t fully AP last night but I had some very mundane dreams where all I did was sit in my room 

I believe that would be considered a false awakening

Sooo Close

I believe this dream yoga as they call it can help to prevent bad dreams. as a side benefit

what if you maintained lucidity the entire time you were asleep ?

 

Edited March 19, 2023 by Oppositionless

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On 3/17/2023 at 5:17 PM, Oppositionless said:

people who think DMT trip = Near Death Experience have not experienced either

 

NDE is closer to astral projection 

want to revise this because too much overgeneralization

people’s experiences are what ever they need at the moment

but still, 
I don’t think the brain releases as much dmt as can be consumed exogenously, thus producing different experiences

and I’m pretty certain my own death will be a lot more chill than my trips have been

most of the nde trip reports I’ve read are just extremely peaceful and serene

Edited March 21, 2023 by Oppositionless

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more mundane dreams today.

had a dream conversation with my roomate, moved around in my bed.

this time I was 100% convinced that I was really awake 

I think conscious OBE is very close

I took a break from doing dream yoga because of sickness but I’m excited to get back to it

keeping it in my mind will manifest it

the last time I got reallly into it I actually had an experience where I rolled out of bed

and then I went back to smoking weed everyday and forgot about it

Edited March 21, 2023 by Oppositionless