The Power of Not Caring

[Matt23]

I've been experiencing some ego-backlash and angst lately; more frustration, more porn usage, more negative habits slipping through the cracks, getting a bit negative with others, etc..  

Last night I got to a point where I felt like I was going to just blow up.  Like I couldn't hold it in any longer and would just lose it on someone.  I didn't know what to do with it. 

Then I just rested with it and came to a sudden insight that provided soooo much relief;  I don't care about people.  Plain and simple.  

It felt sooo good to just acknowledge that and just like ya, be and inhabit that.  It's like, ya, I mean I still do care some for others, maybe a little, but not a ton.  

It was just so nice to not care and be ok not giving a shit anymore.  

Very liberating.  Especially for someone who feels he has to "be the good one" or "caring one" or "has to care about others lots" n' stuff. 

It's just very freeing to acknowledge and be the things you are that you believe are bad and shun.  

I'd recommend it. 

[r0ckyreed]

Care about the meaningful, detach from the meaningless.