Oh god I’m just at the beginning (questions about ego backlash!)

[Infinity8]

That title cracks me up. 
Anyways, here I am for the first time as a little baby consciousness. I’m ready to delve deep to do the serious work necessary and fly. I need some serious guidance on this question; how in the hell does one maintain awareness over the ego and it’s continuous mind traps? 
 It’s like I keep falling in and out of them over and over until I REALIZE that I can be still and calm and that in fact everything is alright now that I am aware enough to just accept it. It’s like I am glued to my mask and then I create space between it enough to just be without thinking and without thought. Then I fall right back into another again just to scare the absolute shit out of me enough to feel like I will never get off this train until I REMEMBER again. 
 

It’s scary when you’re inside the endless mind loop. It’s scared me enough to seek outwards for any sort of help with this. 
 

Kindest regards

Edited January 31, 2023 by Infinity8

[Israfil]

You can watch your ego. But who's watching it? Can you watch that watcher? And what about this last one?

Solving this problem is part of a nice awakening. I recommend you to try it.