@flowboy Thanks a lot for providing some tools to help me with my emotional healing. I'd appreciate it if you could have a look at what happened. No pressure to respond though. I've worked with the questions you gave me in the other thread for three times on the same memory and two times on another less charged situation of about the same age. The memory I worked on was in my 1st school year if I remember correctly, but definitely no more than 2nd year. There were some interns in our class, the people who study to become a teacher themselves. Our regular class teacher was also there. We were drawing pictures and I felt like I had finished mine and showed it to the intern and she informed our teacher. Her: "he says he already finished his drawing" Teacher: "who? Aahh....this one....mhh"  with a dismissive tone, as though she was saying "this boy is quite weird actually". At least this is how I interpreted her response. I felt sad when I heard that. I remember that from then on I believed that I wasn't good as a kid, that something must have been wrong with me. But of course I didn't say anything, I just swallowed it down. But I was thinking about it and assuming that her perception of me must be correct. So in the exercise I fully put myself back in this situation. And then said/asked different things that I couldn't say back then like the following: "Why did you say 'aah this one'?" "Why do you not like me?" "I gave my best with this picture. Why do you think it probably isn't good?" "Now I feel like I'm not a good kid" "Now I feel like all the other kids are better than me" It didn't even take half a minute and I was already crying like a child. I kept going for several minutes, repeating the things I couldn't say back then. I've done this 3 times now just for this one memory and cried every time. Even now writing this I was on the brink of crying, my eyes were already watery and I started to shake a bit. So I guess there's still more pain attached to this memory, right? Is it normal like this, taking several times to resolve the pain of the same incident? Do I keep repeating this until I can't feel any more pain and can't cry any more? Anyway it felt good even though it felt sad. I'll do it more times in the upcoming days.