Being an "evil" character

[onacloudynight]

I am beginning to think that I must be an evil character on this earth...

I dont want to be, but it seems like all I am focused on lately is discovering my evil side. It seems as if I don't know the power I am capable of and it causes me to feel as though I am not aware of that aspect...

[Yimpa]

Yeah, I get those thoughts from time to time. Notice how those thoughts come and go, yet you don’t. 

[onacloudynight]

12 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

Yeah, I get those thoughts from time to time. Notice how those thoughts come and go, yet you don’t. 

I might be subconsciously identified with a character 

[Eternal Unity]

@onacloudynight You're Satan, incarnated.

[Yimpa]

15 minutes ago, onacloudynight said:

I might be subconsciously identified with a character 

“might be” are the key words here. 

[Loba]

We're all liars, we're all monsters, we've all murdered something to survive.  We are all broken toys.  You are not any different from anyone else who has to discover this Truth about themselves.  And it's okay.  Don't judge yourself for it.  Just keep going with the shadow work and look into areas where it's happening, and try to find out why it is and what caused it.  These dark parts of us are put into us by a sick society and broken family systems.  They are ancient energies who "wear you" and speak their lies through you  - there are solutions to change this so that the darker side of life doesn't take over.

• Self/other judgement - Look into the source of the judgement and observe without castigating it.  Now, take that judgement and bless it.  Then send that blessing into the world.  Or turn it into a prayer.  Realize that judgement cuts off the reality of a situation in all forms.  It puts what should be a flow of information into a circle of deception.
• Lying - Be honest.  If you lie, write down the Truth.  Look into why you feel the need to lie.  Keep moving away from lies and bring Light into your conversations and intentions.  This takes some time, a few months to a few years, but keep at it.
• Compassion - Have compassion for yourself and others.  See how the pain you experience is the same as theirs, and how all people have felt this.  If you can't feel "Love", try compassion.  This dissolves the monster at it's root.  Permanently.  Find as many ways as you can to bring compassion into your life.

And finally, look at pictures of the stars.  The universe/space.  Remember that good and evil encompasses all of this and helps to create the whole picture.

I heard the news today
That you're not mine to keep
Don't struggle too much now
While I kill you in your sleep
What is lust if it's not beating by yourself?
I won't be gentle to the body on the shelf

I heard the news today
That you weren't not mine to save
I hope that you're comfortable
In the quiet plastic grave
What is lust if it's not beating by yourself?
I won't be gentle to the body on the shelf

It's only water, it's only fire, it's only love
It's only slaughter, we're only liars, it's only blood
They're only thoughts that
I'm having thoughts safe within my head
You're only crying, you're only dying, you're only dead

Within the darkest waters springs forth the capacity for the greatest form of creativity your soul could ask for if you choose to follow what it has to say with a discerning, non-judgmental and detached eye.  You think, "Oh I must be so horrible.  What a terrible thing I am."  And just underneath that is the lifeblood that gives mankind his most potent potential.  If you are finding this and seeing it within yourself, DO NOT fall back asleep.  Trace it and see what you get.

 

[onacloudynight]

21 minutes ago, Eternal Unity said:

@onacloudynight You're Satan, incarnated.

That's scary 

[onacloudynight]

9 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

“might be” are the key words here. 

What? "I am" is the right answer? 

[Eternal Unity]

5 minutes ago, Loba said:

We're all liars...

Speak for yourself. Lovely mountain ?, beautiful and serene.

[Eternal Unity]

@onacloudynight yeah, immortality has that kind of thing ?

[Yimpa]

14 minutes ago, onacloudynight said:

What? "I am" is the right answer? 

The answer comes from the heart. Searching for an answer in the form of a thought or a belief won’t get you very far. 

[onacloudynight]

24 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

The answer comes from the heart. Searching for an answer in the form of a thought or a belief won’t get you very far. 

The deepest I am going seems to be mental illnesses. That is as far as I can go

My heart seems to be made of thoughts as well ?

[Yimpa]

13 minutes ago, onacloudynight said:

The deepest I am going seems to be mental illnesses. That is as far as I can go

My heart seems to be made of thoughts as well ?

I can assure you I have several mental illnesses, and despite that, I’ve been able to access deep states of love and connectedness from time to time. 

You’ve got this. 

[Eternal Unity]

@Yimpa Thank you!

[John Paul]

Be good 

[onacloudynight]

47 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

I can assure you I have several mental illnesses, and despite that, I’ve been able to access deep states of love and connectedness from time to time. 

You’ve got this. 

What am I missing here??? I am stuck on mental illnesses for some reason. There is one I am not aware of I think ???

[Eternal Unity]

@onacloudynight You're missing The Experience of Paradox.

[onacloudynight]

6 hours ago, Eternal Unity said:

@onacloudynight You're missing The Experience of Paradox.

Explain....

[Eternal Unity]

@onacloudynight 2 appearingly contradictory truths existing together in reality.

[onacloudynight]

8 hours ago, Eternal Unity said:

@onacloudynight 2 appearingly contradictory truths existing together in reality.

So which paradox do I need to understand?