Developing disgust for myself

[onacloudynight]

I am developing disgust for myself. I hate this human species and this body. I am a liar and I am very petty.

Why can't we all be good? Why do some of us have to be monsters.

[Holykael]

Because god is evil and created humanity to be that way.

[michaelcycle00]

[Theplay]

@onacloudynight  I was once disgusted with this reality and hated everything about it.

From my experience it can be because of flawed assumptions about reality

which come about from personal interpretation of events which can be removed from the Truth.

Another thing might be past experiences which color our perception of reality. Here I think therapy could help.

There are no monsters , each of us is somehow broken, some in less socially acceptable ways.

For example I have a tendency to go into psychosis and when its to severe i.e. I act too socially unacceptable ,

They need to hospitalize me.

Hope it helped even if just a bit.

Have a great day!

Daniel

[SeaMonster]

1 hour ago, onacloudynight said:

I am developing disgust for myself. I hate this human species and this body. I am a liar and I am very petty.

Why can't we all be good? Why do some of us have to be monsters.

There is nothing more valuable than having strong emotions which one diagnoses as dissatisfaction with oneself.

I'm serious: that's the first step towards personal growth and even enlightenment.  You should be very encouraged.

Except the goal is not to be "good" but to be "whole."  Self-acceptance comes only after the ENTIRE SELF is revealed.  Right now there are parts that are buried or undeveloped.

[Thought Art]

When your eyes begin to open it I hard. 
Hold fast and grow your love

be patient 

read: The Mystic Path to Cosmic Power by Vernon Howard

Edited January 13, 2023 by Thought Art

[Cathal]

If you truly investigated cause and effect there wouldn't be this judgment but just an understanding, once you evolve from judgment to understanding how things arise logically, the way you feel doesn't influence your thinking as it's doing now and once you're aligned with your understanding those delusional thoughts (which are conditoning these emotions) stop making sense and you just let go

[Aiwass]

On 1/13/2023 at 4:05 PM, onacloudynight said:

I am developing disgust for myself. I hate this human species and this body. I am a liar and I am very petty.

Why can't we all be good? Why do some of us have to be monsters.

Some of us actively avoid self-development.

[onacloudynight]

On 1/14/2023 at 6:21 PM, Aiwass said:

Some of us actively avoid self-development.

Growing yourself is scary. You start becoming weird.

[Leo Gura]

On 1/13/2023 at 1:07 PM, Holykael said:

Because god is evil and created humanity to be that way.

If you do not stop with this toxic negativity you will be banned.

[Leo Gura]

@onacloudynight You are going through a break up. Stop listening to the negative stuff your mind says.

Notice, it's just toxic monkey mind. You are believing your own mind which is lying all the time.

Edited January 18, 2023 by Leo Gura

[Eternal Unity]

Descartes

[hyruga]

You should contemplate and heal your emotional wounds. Good videos would be those by Teal Swan or by a forumer here called Tristan.

[Basman]

You are just going through a heartbreak. Just keep yourself busy with something (besides making these posts) and it will all be OK in the end.

Avoid buying any pets.

[Tyler Robinson]

I can't heal you right now with words because no amount of talking will change what your mind is talking to you. 

So I will do what I can. I'm sending you a giant box of hugs. 

Hope you are in good spirits in a few weeks.

 

 

 

Edited January 19, 2023 by Tyler Robinson

[onacloudynight]

16 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

@onacloudynight You are going through a break up. Stop listening to the negative stuff your mind says.

Notice, it's just toxic monkey mind. You are believing your own mind which is lying all the time.

How to make the mind tell me good things?

[onacloudynight]

19 minutes ago, Tyler Robinson said:

I can't heal you right now with words because no amount of talking will change what your mind is talking to you. 

So I will do what I can. I'm sending you a giant box of hugs. 

Hope you are in good spirits in a few weeks.

 

 

 

Thank you so much. I needed that 

[Leo Gura]

1 hour ago, onacloudynight said:

How to make the mind tell me good things?

You are the mind. Sit down and visualize good things.

Edited January 19, 2023 by Leo Gura

[Kshantivadin]

On 13/01/2023 at 10:05 PM, onacloudynight said:

I am developing disgust for myself. I hate this human species and this body. I am a liar and I am very petty.

Why can't we all be good? Why do some of us have to be monsters.

You can become whatever you want to be ❤️ the most loveable angel-like human here on this planet, for example. 

[FourCrossedWands]

I once said to my doctor that my body is weird and I don't like it. His answer was "Having multiple bodily deformities is completely normal, don't worry about it"... Made my day!