My family wants to send me to a mental hospital, I'm not ready

[Tyler Robinson]

My family has been forcing me since last 4 days to get admitted in a mental hospital for 3 months. 

The hospital has wards where 7 mentally ill people will stay in one large room. 

I don't feel okay. I feel scared and anxious. I feel like the nurses will treat me badly or do things against my will. 

I can imagine them talking rudely to me, forcing me to take pills and drugs that I don't want to take. 

I kept begging that I don't want to go. 

I am not mentally prepared to go to such a place. It's making me anxious. 

What should I do? 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I feel like that place is unethical. 

The attitude towards mentally ill is not good. They are treated like burden to families.. 

The way the doctors talk "let's try this with her".... That language turns me off. It's like how to shut me down. 

I am very nervous. I feel like they don't want to understand me. 

My family is constantly contacting psychologists and complaining about my behavior to them. 

I want to die. I feel trapped. 

Just nobody to understand me. 

 

I pray nobody else should go through this. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I'm disabled so I can't work like other people. 

I went apartment hunting a few days ago and those places are just pathetic. Only one was available on rent and the neighbors were too noisy and the landlord was rude so I gave up on that. 

I'm also not mentally ready to move out. I feel anxious around people generally. 

I tried living away for a few months and it didn't work because I wouldn't eat in the new place, the social anxiety of being in a new place began bugging me. 

I also have autism so I don't like major changes in my life. I like to be where I am put up. 

It's hard. Of course I need psychiatric assistance but not the way my family is going about this. 

They are also tracking my activities now. 

 

Yesterday they were looking into my phone. Before they could see this website I snatched the phone out of their hands.

I don't want them to know I'm here. 

If they find out that I'm here, they will discourage me from writing here and even my last source of support will be gone. 

They tell me to socialize with the people in the building. But I tried and most of the people in the building are very rude and mean towards me. So I don't like talking to anyone.. 

I have an avoidant personality. My family doesn't understand my needs. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I feel like one day when I'm in an angry state (I have anger issues due to BPD - borderline personality disorder and ptsd due to childhood trauma), they might call the mental hospital and complain about me and the mental hospital might send people to forcefully drag me out of the house and keep me there. 

I feel like my family needs a big lesson in empathy. They suck. They are the ones who ruined my childhood, fucked me up for life and now they pretend like I'm the problem that needs to be disposed off. 

It's them who should be sent to jail for systematically gaslighting me and fucking me up 

 

They have zero understanding of my problems. 

 

[Michael Jackson]

@Tyler Robinson I feel sorry for you.

You should leave your family.

[Tyler Robinson]

Right now I'm in a hospital and they are talking about taking away my phone and not contacting my family. 

I will not allow this. I'll run from this place 

 

They can't do anything without my consent. 

God I pray. Take me out of here. 

Not another episode of force and abuse. 

 

[Something Funny]

@Tyler Robinson did they admit you there against your will. Are you now required to stay there or can you leave if you want?

[Something Funny]

@KH2 amen

@Tyler Robinson please stay strong, you can get through this.

[Loba]

Torch’s fire catches an eye
Shiver of night lights up the sky
Frozen silence fills the air
Holding our devotion & fear

Never give up, never give up
Never ever ever ever, ever ever ever

Ear to the wall that’s keeping us in
Can we hear them, are they listening?
If it takes all to build the great divide
It’ll take all of us to make this right

Are we living in the darkness?
Do we listen to the light?
Are we standing in the fire?
Are running through the night?
Can we hear the calling?
Can we make this right?
Are we living in the darkness?
Do we listen to the light?

Never give up, never give up
Never ever ever ever, ever ever ever

Three Words Of Strength
Poet: Friedrich Schiller

There are three lessons I would write —
Three words as with a burning pen,
In tracings of eternal light
Upon the hearts of men.

Have Hope. Though clouds environ round
And gladness hides her face in scorn,
Put off the shadow from thy brow —
No night but hath its morn.

Have Faith. Where'er thy bark is driven —
The claims disport, the tempest's mirth —
Know this: God rules the hosts of heaven,
The inhabitants of earth.

Have Love. Not love alone for one;
But man, as man, thy brother call;
And scatter, like the circling sun,
Thy charities on all.

Thus grave these lessons on thy soul —
Hope, Faith and Love, and thou shalt find
Strength, when life's surges rudest roll.
Light, when thou else were blind.

[Thought Art]

On 1/8/2023 at 8:37 PM, TheGreekSeeker said:

If you don't want to go but are still dependent on your family for money, find an apartment in your town, make an arrangement with the owner to pay them the first rent the next month, and find a job instantly. This is your only escape from your family. I don't know though how they can force you into a psych ward, since you are an adult. They don't have custody over you. 

Be mindful of the advice you give. You don't know her mental state.

[Tyler Robinson]

This is 19 hours later.. 

My sister was signing the consent forms and I kept begging her that this is Inhuman..I snatched her pen.. 

Then I began screaming to let me go.. 

So a group of men and women came and forcefully grabbed both my arms and dragged me across the floor meanwhile I was kicking and screaming and then they dumped me into a cramped room.. And shut the door. 

After a while 4 nurses came in with a syringe in hand and then turned my body and injected me with it and I became drowsy after a while.. 

After a few hours, I was told to do go.. I left

[Tyler Robinson]

Now I'm safe 

[Kore]

@Tyler Robinson I was and am praying for you ❤️

[Eternal Unity]

On 1/9/2023 at 2:31 AM, Tyler Robinson said:

What should I do? 

Consult with a psychiatrist. I wish you all the peace in the world ❤

[asifarahim]

Practice kriya yoga

Do 6 months of kriya yoga practice and u will forget what depression looks like

Big pharma want u to be their permenent customer.

Kriya yoga ended my greate depression while pills did nothing and doctors were milking my money through pills

 

Practicing kriya yoga and returning to islam were the only things that ended my depression.

Vipasana was not enough

Edited January 10, 2023 by asifarahim

[Tyler Robinson]

Thanks for the prayers. 

I have safely landed home after a lot of screaming and protesting. I made them go mad until they didn't let me go. 

 

 

Terrible place that was. I felt like a jail there. 

 

[Something Funny]

I am glad that you are okay now. This is some good morning news.

 

Edited January 10, 2023 by Something Funny

[Tyler Robinson]

23 minutes ago, Something Funny said:

I am glad that you are okay now. This is some good morning news.

 

Thank you. 

[Tyler Robinson]

Finally I'm out of that hell. 

They forcefully injected me with tranquilizers because I was screaming "let me go" at the top of my lungs and they retrained me.. 

[Michael Jackson]

@Tyler Robinson  How are you now?