A Loving girlfriend part 2

[Tyler Robinson]

We fought and fought from dawn to dusk. 

In the end I squashed his light saber and he dropped it. I was about to kill him but I stopped short and I began to feel guilt and shame. How could I betray my own master? He was my master after all? 

I won. He lost. 

He wanted to crown me the new Queen but I refused. Tears in my eyes. How could he do this to me? 

 

Edited January 11, 2023 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

Then one day Yuresus tells me that he needs to kill me in order to survive. I get upset. After doing so much for him, he wants to kill me? 

Hitherto, I had obeyed his every command. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

But Yuresus wanted to teach me that life is tough, life is hard. There are betrayals. And he wanted me to stop being childish and act real. 

He wanted to show me reality and he wanted me to embrace the cruelty of life. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Yuresus is like a harsh boyfriend, the tough love kind of guy. Zero mercy. But even in his lack of mercy, there's mercy. 

Can you subtly feel this contradiction? 

 

He is rough. But he still cares. He just wants me to be prepared for life.. 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Sometimes my relationship with Leo is like Yuresus.. 

Especially such comments remind me of how Yuresus treats me. He shows me tough love but really wants the best for me. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

And then there's a spiritual lover Aaaak. 

So now I have a couple of lovers 

• Mr Bear 
• Manny 
• George Barkley 
• Yuresus 
• Aaaak 

 

The kit is full. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Aaaak is all about intuition.. 

[Tyler Robinson]

Yuresus wants to have sex with me but I won't allow.. 

[Tyler Robinson]

Yuresus will make a good boyfriend.. 

[Tyler Robinson]

On 1/12/2023 at 5:11 AM, Tyler Robinson said:

And then there's a spiritual lover Aaaak. 

So now I have a couple of lovers 

• Mr Bear 
• Manny 
• George Barkley 
• Yuresus 
• Aaaak 

 

The kit is full. 

 

The kit is not yet full. 

I want a lover with whom I experienced Kundalini love.. That was ultimate. 

It's like I'm looking for spirituality through love. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

7 minutes ago, Tyler Robinson said:

The kit is not yet full. 

I want a lover with whom I experienced Kundalini love.. That was ultimate. 

It's like I'm looking for spirituality through love. 

 

What should I call this lover?

I should call him Vincent. 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

I woke up from an awful awful nightmare. 

In the dream I'm liked by a British guy whose name is Vincent. 

A lot of people thought that I was aggressive. And yes I was. 

There were a group of people who made fun of me. 

I tried hard to escape. 

My reality constantly blurring with fantasy. 

I see scenes in my dream. 

I think that I can escape Vincent. But I can't. 

Maybe Vincent is the reason why I died in my last birth. 

I tell Vincent compassionately that I don't wish to be a part of his plan. 

I run upstairs. Vincent follows me. He runs to me and grabs me by my arm. 

He is standing close to me not ready to let go 

I want him to know I'm independent. Yet I feel very fragile and unable to escape. 

End of the dream. 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

On 9/21/2022 at 1:09 PM, Tyler Robinson said:

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Vincent is bipolar. 

I'm so deeply drawn to Vincent. Vincent is bipolar but he is very affectionate and kind and silly. He makes me cheerful inside. 

  

I have been with bipolar people for so long that I have gotten used to them.. Now it doesn't matter. 

I told myself that I would never date a bipolar guy again. But I'm falling back into old patterns

 

I like Vincent. He makes me laugh. He is very witty. Charming. Best part. 

He is very affectionate and warm. 

 

 I like him. His bipolar is under control because he takes meds. 

I imagine that some day I'll be Vincent's wife

I'm not that attracted to James or Billy anymore 

I see Rob as a guy who is good at challenging me but lacks understanding and perspective. 

I like Vincent. He wanted my tattoo. 

Now I just want to live as Vincent's wife. 

He is charismatic. 

He is just as emotional as P but unlike P, he isn't sulking all the time. He doesn't get carried away. 

Because Vincent tries to bond with me, he connects to me. I feel good. 

He is someone who is ready to explore life with me. 

I think everything is an NPC. And now everything makes perfect sense. Why reality is dysfunctional. Why the world is this way. 

You transfer energies to people. 

We are spiritual NPCs with a material existence. 

And that transfer of energy is intimacy. 

And this intimacy is what sustains us. 

We need a twin, a soulmate, a flame, a life partner 

 

For the longest time I felt like I couldn't function without a life partner. 

 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I wanted to be Vincent's wife. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Now the list is complete 

• Mr Bear 
• Manny 
• George Barkley 
• Yuresus 
• Aaaak 
• Vincent 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

My husband is keeping an eye on me Lmao. Feels good. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Lucid dreams. This person is capable of nothing. 

You have my attention now. Because clearly that's all you wanted. 

.... 

He secretly checks my posts and then says I'm on ignore.. What a tool. 

.....

 

Edited January 13, 2023 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

The best I can do now is add a laugh emoji. 

Some people are just nuts. 

[Tyler Robinson]

Ugly motherfucker. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I did not give a damn fuck about my husband.