Short survey journal

[Tyler Robinson]

Asking myself random short survey 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Day 1

How do you feel today? 

- not so good. 

How can you describe your feeling? 

- I feel like a brain fog. A little tired and confused. Lacking in energy. 

Random talk 

Why do you think there's division in society? 

- - because it's taken in a certain direction that automatically triggers hate and division. When haters protest a system or status quo, it's not because of the strong Nazi hate, it's because there's always a half truth to all the accusations. These partial truths are never fully addressed. It will obviously lead to lack of social cohesion

How is your forum activity today? 

- the last 24 hours someone was bugging me. I put that person on ignore. I spent 3 hours correcting that nonsense. But it was worth it in the end. Some people are neurotically obsessed with me. They come and tell me that they love me which I don't believe for a second. Because I know these people are objectifying women. Anytime a guy says that he loves me on the internet it means he is objectifying me. Because how can you love a woman who you haven't even met. How are you developing feelings for someone unknown? I usually respond positively to such men. I used to in the past, 2020ish times. Now I'm more self aware and kinda out of that. 

Random scattered thoughts 

- I invented this acronym to understand the phase I was in during those days when I was caving into bad relationships. I call it 

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Random scattered thoughts - random musings 

I invented this acronym. Lack of cognitive ability. LOCA. This is the best way of describing my autism. I think autism manifests itself differently in different people. In me it was lack of cognitive ability to understand my environment. 

LOCA was the major reason why I was almost unresponsive to gaslighting and bad stimuli. 

You would obviously need an ignore option in a mental asylum. 

 

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Understanding social dynamics is a huge part of my growth. In retrospect whatever actions I did and the impact I suffered it all came together to help me understand my own reality. 

 

 

 

 

Edited December 27, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

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Have you done psychedelics before? 

- yea. Just once I took LSD and I felt great. I felt like a dancing snake for a day. That was a unique funny role play. 

I wanna role play a lot more but still be in touch with reality. 

 

 

 

Edited December 27, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

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Yea I was diagnosed with autism that made things really bad. 

 

 

 

 

 

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The great thing is that i have begun talking to myself again. 

And finding comfort in it. 

That's awesome 

 

 

 

 

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I woke up in the middle of the time and it was bad enough. It kinda screwed me. I felt an enormous need to vent out stuff.

I have independently evolved into my own

 

 

 

Edited December 27, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

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My back is aching really bad. Usually happens when I wake up in the middle of the time. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited December 28, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

 

1 minute ago, Tyler Robinson said:

 

 

You should also think about what makes you more docile.  

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

4 minutes ago, Tyler Robinson said:

 

 

Lol.try to act normal 

 

 

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Trust 

 

 

Edited December 28, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

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This is December 2022. I'm keeping a track 

 

Keeping a track on the trouble days of the forum. 

I'll call these the bad mood or BM days on the forum. 

 

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The days I will do a lot of work will be Greenlight days. 

I'll mark them green on the calendar. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited December 28, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

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The days I will do a lot of work will be Greenlight days. 

I'll mark them green on the calendar. 

 

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What will my ideal world / life would look like? 

Only positivity. Imagine a world under the sea. 

 

 

 

 

Edited December 28, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

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The Sea means = Refuge 

 

 

A refuge is a place away from bad things to shield and protect a person 

 

Meaning of refuge 

refuge

/ˈrɛfjuːdʒ/

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noun

the state of being safe or sheltered from pursuit, danger, or difficulty.

"he was forced to take refuge in the French embassy"

a place or situation providing safety or shelter.

plural noun: refuges

"the family came to be seen as a refuge from a harsh world"

Similar:

shelter

protection

safety

security

asylum

sanctuary

preservation

safe keeping

place of shelter

place of safety

haven

safe haven

sanctum

safe house

harbour

port in a storm

ark

retreat

bolthole

foxhole

hiding place

hideaway

hideout

fastness

querencia

an institution providing safe accommodation for women who have suffered violence from a spouse or partner.

 

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The bloop is my inspiration 

 

I need to worship the ocean. 

 

 

 

 

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I obviously had bad dreams because I was MB

 

 

 

 

Edited December 28, 2022 by Tyler Robinson