Imposter Syndrome = Being Happy

[emptiness dancing]

I don't know how to phrase this question,( or statement) hmmm... I feel like a fraud when I'm experiencing extreme joy and ecstacy( ok I was on mushrooms ?), 

One, when I'm alone there this part of me that tells me ... It's like dude you don't deserve this

Second, I was like soberish happy and I can't even muster the courage to share my joy with others ( Im still stuck in my head) 

Is that my old conservative ego or am I trying to stay grounded? 

.. I don't know which part of the trip do I take back with me?? Life can't be this joyful??? 

Sorry for the silly question.. Maybe?

[Godishere]

It's difficult, initially, but you need to discover that thoughts are just... Thoughts. Don't take thoughts personally as if they actually mean anything about You. Discover what's true, here and now, where are these thoughts?

[emptiness dancing]

34 minutes ago, Lila9 said:

Have you ever in your life been shamed by other people for expressing joy?

Wow, your statement/question hits my heart like a sledgehammer  ?, 

I live in a very strict conservative environment so I don't know how often I suppress my feelings?

Trying to break out of my shell is quite an undertaking ?

Most of the time, I don't know whether my actions are brave or foolish?