My Sanctuary

[Razard86]

 

I’m lost in this maze called life, what is happening,

Got a new gig, new opportunity but I can’t keep up with the changes

Triggering I keep feeling this constantly, thinking something is wrong with me

Fighting right and left hoping that from this I can be free

Looking up to the sky, feeling small in comparison I can’t lie,

Wanting to make the best of my time here before I die

But I second-guess constantly struggling with the unknown I cannot deny,

Trying to control this self-image I made and to my principle I won’t defy

Waking up everyday watching my love go from juicy slowly to dry,

 

I’m like a rogue wave from the ocean, I rise high then fall violently,

I disappear into the ocean as if I never happened,

I arose and crashed down purely for my own satisfaction,

I’m a rebel without a cause, A beat without its drummer,

I drift from thought to feelings, and back just to avoid feeling number,

This struggle maybe imaginary, but its where I stake my claim,

I’ll leave my mark where I want, oblivious of any kind of fame,

I dared to be different, weird, to have others drown in ignorance of my ways

Cause I know my heart is joyful when its true, being me will always be constant okays.

 

I’m the lone wolf, howling at the moon behind my eyes call it my sanctuary,

This is how I feed my desire for self-love and cultivate my stability,

Reality is chaotic, with the illusion of stability, so my sanctuary is my rest,

When I leave my sanctuary its always some bullshit test,

Sometimes I view my situations with others as a pest,

Then I remember some don’t have a sanctuary so they never have rest,

And I remember that to have a sanctuary is to have the highest bless.

Then I awaken and remember, rest is peace, nirvana, ecstasy,

So I rest in my sanctuary with the knowledge there is only me.

Edited December 20, 2022 by Razard86