Depression, sleeping more than 12+hrs, no school for 1 month

[ShardMare]

Im diagnosed with depression. Im on fluoxetine 10mg. I feel fine and good, proud of myself but still i have a feeling theres a better antidepressant for me. I should have a better mood.

I sleep a lot, especially in the weekends, i lay in my bed couple of times a day to just lay or whatever, sleep an hour. 

When its school i have better mood. I sort of have something to do, a duty. Now i will be at home for a whole month and its hard to be. Im an introvert but as a depressed person its bad to be at home this much. Most of the times when i wake up around 6am i watch youtube and other social medias. I get joy from doing these things. After that maybe i take a nap

I have a high protein diet, i go to gym right after it opens it makes me feel good, i meditate. I eat lots of fruits,veggies. Off of added sugar for 8months kinda. . I dont have no physical conditions, my bloodwork good.

Ive had been waiting for so long for the next month. I will turn 18 and be able to try other antidepressants.

I will study for my final exams and programming too. That will keep me busy.

What do you think?

[John Paul]

It sounds like you’ve got everything handled.

maybe you want to meet some new friends?

maybe you want to start a creative or brainy hobby?

maybe you’d consider getting off of antidepressants instead of switching?

Maybe you’d start dating for fun?

Edited December 17, 2022 by John Paul

[Someone here]

I had the same situation  a while back .

Here is what I did to to resolve it: 

I asked myself what my superpower was (we all have one, you know.)

What was it that I loved doing the most?

That thing that I could do all day without getting bored or tired?

What gives me the "where does the time go" feeling?

To answer these questions, I took my time.

And I found mixing music and creating music is my thing  . Find a hobby that you enjoy.  Go buy sport's shoes and run miles or play soccer or whatever. 

[Cathal]

@ShardMare Hi there, good work to see you're taking care of yourself and working through things  we all can experience ruts and depression but we can also be wise to avoid unneccessary suffering. I just want to point out a few things that might be helpful for you, not in the sense of pills or methods or meditation or psychedelics or therapy but a question for you to investigate and see if this is true yourself; Firstly the most important thing is when you said "I should have" a better mood. This is fundamentally how humans suffer so much, by craving what is not in the present reality. And so we are introduced to what is known as suffering. (dukha/dissatisfaction). 

We think things should be different than they really are, we do all the things we think will make us happy but it just doesn't, so despair eventually arises when we just don't get what we want (back to craving)

Craving is the source of suffering, it is the first noble truth the Buddha expounded upon, there is suffering (dukha) but there is also a path to end suffering. (dukha nirodha) So I'm just going to drop a link and if it something you are interested in exploring and testing, go ahead and see does it work, does practicing any of this make you happier or not?, in essence we are refraining from harming ourselves and others, doing good deeds and practicing meditation so we can experience this freedom from being dissatisfied with the way things are, since at some point sooner rather than later, I hope wisdom enters you to see what you are doing that is causing you this pain.

Association with the disliked is dukha

Seperation from the liked is dukha

Not getting what one wants is dukha 

So where does true happiness begin?

[Richard Purdy]

Try to enjoy and appreciate your depression. Nobody will tell you this. Depression is just a human condition. Make time to enjoy it and allow it for a solid hour per day with no judements, then go about your regular business. Your problem may lie in wanting to not be depressed and wanting things to be different. No matter your mood you should treat it with love. 

Edited December 18, 2022 by Richard Purdy

[ShardMare]

@John Paul @Someone here i dont think so. Its not big. I mean all of those things getting a hobby or getting a gf etc etc. not that big

@Cathal im openminded but i think i shouldnt do this. I cant just let go, im not on that level. 

@Richard Purdy yes i like that idea. Through few months it was easier to cope while using this idea. I should feel this feeling but overtime i should change.

I shouldnt be depressed for a long time, no?

[Richard Purdy]

@ShardMare Be okay with feeling the feeling forever and it will naturally dissipate. It may take weeks or months of acceptance of which seems like no progress will occur. You must be okay with that. Keep feeling. You're never going to completely "heal" it. One way or another in life you'll be depressed again. Use this as your advantage and change your relationship with it. Love it and your reactions to it. You have to be in the state of mind where you want more of it. You'll be feeling much better.

Edited December 18, 2022 by Richard Purdy

[teraflu]

I would like to face the main issue of my life which is quite uncommon and it keeps me from living a productive, joyful & high quality life.

The issue is to FEAR to wake up in the mornings.

Not even begin to mention all the problems it caused in my life. 

I am lucky to have a lifestyle that does not require waking up too early. 

Yet if I have to be ready super early, this gives me anxiety which became uncontrolable when I tried to work my passion job that I liked or when I tried to study in University. 

 

As a result of living intense life in the early years of life now as soon as I open up my eyes in the morning, body immediately locks in fear. Sometimes it takes up to 6 hours to get back into the safe state to leave the bed. Due to this issue I skipped many important social occasions, meetings & parties.

 

This only occurs when I am in a position of living the life I call ''life in the system''.

 

To analyse this state deeper, I had to overcame many other fears that I had in my life. And for this one I always go sleep excited, meditated and completely calm inside. In the evening I do everything to prepare myself for the next morning. Then the morning comes and fear shows up. 

I can not move until I consciously think: OKAY, I do not have to go outside, I have a choice and I can stay at home. Which lead to many events unattended. And then I got myself a lable of irresponsible society member. 

 

In which way could I guide my thoughts in the morning? Feel absolute fear, no excitement and not matter wether I planned exciting things for that day or not. 

If I attend to events, I have no problem to socialise with people, I guess I am subconsciously afraid of the system more than people. 

Anyone has any advice how to talk with the body? I tried many different techniques including that stayed home for the half of the year to take time up to 6 hours every morning just to feel secure enough to wake up. Not leaving the bed until feeling safe to get up. 

 

[Schizophonia]

Stop antidepressants and your high protein diet.
Test your thyroid hormones and androgens.

Edited December 31, 2023 by Schizophonia

[Schizophonia]

2 hours ago, teraflu said:

I would like to face the main issue of my life which is quite uncommon and it keeps me from living a productive, joyful & high quality life.

The issue is to FEAR to wake up in the mornings.

Not even begin to mention all the problems it caused in my life. 

I am lucky to have a lifestyle that does not require waking up too early. 

Yet if I have to be ready super early, this gives me anxiety which became uncontrolable when I tried to work my passion job that I liked or when I tried to study in University. 

 

As a result of living intense life in the early years of life now as soon as I open up my eyes in the morning, body immediately locks in fear. Sometimes it takes up to 6 hours to get back into the safe state to leave the bed. Due to this issue I skipped many important social occasions, meetings & parties.

 

This only occurs when I am in a position of living the life I call ''life in the system''.

 

To analyse this state deeper, I had to overcame many other fears that I had in my life. And for this one I always go sleep excited, meditated and completely calm inside. In the evening I do everything to prepare myself for the next morning. Then the morning comes and fear shows up. 

I can not move until I consciously think: OKAY, I do not have to go outside, I have a choice and I can stay at home. Which lead to many events unattended. And then I got myself a lable of irresponsible society member. 

 

In which way could I guide my thoughts in the morning? Feel absolute fear, no excitement and not matter wether I planned exciting things for that day or not. 

If I attend to events, I have no problem to socialise with people, I guess I am subconsciously afraid of the system more than people. 

Anyone has any advice how to talk with the body? I tried many different techniques including that stayed home for the half of the year to take time up to 6 hours every morning just to feel secure enough to wake up. Not leaving the bed until feeling safe to get up. 

 

As you are a woman you could try (just to try) a good amount of oral progesterone for a few days, like 100 to 200mg per day.
Very anxiolytic by increasing gabaergic neurotransmition and decreasing that of serotonin and histamine by increasing the activity of monoamine oxidase (probably by opposing estrogens, I don't know).

Can also greatly accelerate recovery from neurological damage due to depression.

Edited December 31, 2023 by Schizophonia