Sharing my experiences after Awakening.

[inFlow]

Yesterday I was going to the forest where I usually go and meditate near a small river-flow, when I always go in the forest I put hand my on this one tree, pet the tree and say "Hello my Mother" with a smile on my face. Going through the forest is always a beautiful experience, we got snow now and it's so cozy there, silent, healing. So I went to the small river there, put my yoga mat down, zafu on top and sat there for a short 20min meditation. Then I drank my tea and just stayed in silence listening to the water just flowing. Then I remembered a video of a guy walking barefoot on snow and I wanted to try it and so I did, walked for a couple of minutes until my feet couldn't take it. After that I walked back home. And in the evening I was doing my routine of cardio+yoga.

I noticed that when ever I get on my training bike and start to pedle my back starts to heat up, where the Ida/Pingala side channels are. It's just a super warm sensation. So I just pedle pedle, sweat for like 15~mins and my thoughts go to todays walk through the forest. And I started to tear up. I realized that when I walked through the forest, the forest was so happy that I was enjoying it. And I felt so happy that the forest is so beautiful and I could enjoy it. Same goes to the river! The river was super happy that somebody enjoyed it and that it had the opportunity to calm down somebody. So did the snow that I was walking barefoot on! The snow was so happy that it could do the job of cold exposure. The snow sort of felt that it had the privilege to do so! Not just being boring snow but actually helping somebody. And realizing this I cried so much! I had to get off my bike and lay on the floor to just cry. And everything went through my mind! Even the thought that my bike was happy that it could do the work of getting me stronger!

Idk how does this sound, but the actual experience of this was the most profound, Loving, Healing I've ever had. I mean going to the same forest will not feel the same, it will be a different experience. It feels like now for me these inanimate things have a nature on their own! They can "feel" sort of speak. I sort of want to talk to these things! Just today when I woke up I was in such joy of being in bed! Hugged my pillow said thank you to it for being there, making me sleep well, so did the same for my bed and I was just in so much Love with the bed/blanked/pillow, felt like I was getting hugged from all directions! What an experience to have!

This actually puts "Reality is Love" to a whole different LEVEL!

Have a gone insane? Am I talking to God like this? Is this where growing Consciousness gets you?

Edited November 20, 2022 by inFlow

[Osaid]

You're tapping into profound levels of gratitude/gratefulness/love. I dip into it sometimes, not as deep as this though. But I can relate to the erratic crying and emotions that can come up as a result.

If this is insanity, maybe insanity isn't so bad, lol.

[inFlow]

@Osaid well better not be talking with "items" in front of others though ? but wow what a recontextualization this is!

And the most beautiful thing for me is that I was speaking to the forest way before I realized this! It's like why there would be a forest in the first place? If there is no body to experience the beauty of it, that makes it a sad/lonely forest. It's like when ever I see a beautiful girl walking by I smile and observe her beauty, so does the forest! It's so happy that it could have me walk through it and to see It's beauty!

Edited November 20, 2022 by inFlow

[Osaid]

2 minutes ago, inFlow said:

And the most beautiful thing for me is that I was speaking to the forest way before I realized this! It's like why there would be a forest in the first place? If there is no body to experience the beauty of it, that makes it a sad/lonely forest. It's like when ever I see a beautiful girl walking by I smile and observe her beauty, so does the forest! It's so happy that it could have me walk through it and to see It's beauty!

When you're happy, the entire universe becomes happy. Literally. 

[inFlow]

@Osaid it feels like it smiles back at you!