I need to make an apology

[Javfly33]

Some years ago when I was young and naive, I bitched a lot about the wasted time meditating, watching Leos videos, and for that matter watching all kind of spiritual videos that teach about enlightenment, Truth , etc.

At that time I only saw the point in having fun, getting money and success, having girls, being cool, going on adventures, etc.

Now after some time I see the deep wise on having done this work, it's starting to "pay" dividends. Im no super man and I still have lots of mastery to do and fix my habits In lots of ways, lots of it. But there are some days, when I retreat myself a bit from social engagement and just about almost anything apart from putting out the necessary work hours, and I just find myself in my home, with a weird smile on my face and clear-kind of warm comfort blanket around me, its not a physical blanket, but a metaphorical one: its a "subtle intuition" of... the differences are not there  and damn it feels fucking nuts that one day could one be this conscious without doing anything, but just as a result of everything one has done and learn, over the years.

Nothing more to say! Wishing luck for everyone else still seeking and that yeah the work pays but its grueling and nobody will support you, so have that in mind when you are not seeing results and get unmotivated.  

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Prodigal son. 

 

 

[Razard86]

7 hours ago, Javfly33 said:

Some years ago when I was young and naive, I bitched a lot about the wasted time meditating, watching Leos videos, and for that matter watching all kind of spiritual videos that teach about enlightenment, Truth , etc.

At that time I only saw the point in having fun, getting money and success, having girls, being cool, going on adventures, etc.

Now after some time I see the deep wise on having done this work, it's starting to "pay" dividends. Im no super man and I still have lots of mastery to do and fix my habits In lots of ways, lots of it. But there are some days, when I retreat myself a bit from social engagement and just about almost anything apart from putting out the necessary work hours, and I just find myself in my home, with a weird smile on my face and clear-kind of warm comfort blanket around me, its not a physical blanket, but a metaphorical one: its a "subtle intuition" of... the differences are not there  and damn it feels fucking nuts that one day could one be this conscious without doing anything, but just as a result of everything one has done and learn, over the years.

Nothing more to say! Wishing luck for everyone else still seeking and that yeah the work pays but its grueling and nobody will support you, so have that in mind when you are not seeing results and get unmotivated.  

 

I'm glad you are seeing what few can. Yes those "differences" are distinctions/labels to which we concoct meaning/storylines. When you start to notice what you are doing by habit unconsciously and how it influences your life....you can use it consciously and take back control of your perspective and how you are shaping it.

We only suffer our perspective. The more we control it, the better and more peaceful the experience.