Am I What I Do?

[jdeugarte]

Lately I've been thinking a lot about death. I've been thinking that death is the only thing that would stop the uneasyness that creeps in. I feel as if I am ultimately useless because all the things that I used to want, and still do in a way, and the things I am presently doing are not only useless but somewhat impure and evil. I know it is something to expect but it feels good to write it and know someone will read it. 

It feels as if I am what I do. 

[Prabhaker]

13 minutes ago, jdeugarte said:

I've been thinking that death is the only thing that would stop the uneasyness that creeps in.

Death will reflect the ultimate culmination, the crescendo of your whole life. In a condensed form, it is all that you have lived. Unless you live meditatively, joyously; you can't be at ease even after death. 

[jdeugarte]

@Prabhaker bad news for me then. 

[jse]

@jdeugarte , you are so much more than the sum parts of your life...

Find yourself - find the courage lurking within you, courage to leave this way of life that makes you so unhappy.  Be brave, take a risk, leave your gray existence and find a better path - you have nothing to lose, and sooo much to gain.

[jdeugarte]

@jse , thank you but I think I was overreacting a little while writing the post. I don't want you to worry for me. I guess you're right, I am going through a bit of a gray phase. I really do appreciate your kind words. 

English is not my first language and I tend to write and say things in a different connotation. I am a little embarrassed. 

 

Thanks!

[jse]

26 minutes ago, jdeugarte said:

English is not my first language and I tend to write and say things in a different connotation. I am a little embarrassed.

@jdeugarte , your English is just fine.

And there is nothing embarrassing about opening up in this forum - if anything, it shows your courage.

[Leo Gura]

@jdeugarte Just use some basic common sense here:

If you are what you do, you'd have to stop existing whenever you stopped doing it.

Cut the sloppy thinking and speculating, and get serious. What ACTUALLY are you?

[PureExp]

2 hours ago, jdeugarte said:

I've been thinking that death is the only thing that would stop the uneasyness that creeps in.

Surprise ! There is no such thing as death. Coincidentally I made a post just today about it. Its easy to know.

The only way out is knowledge. Get enlightened asap !

[Nahm]

Take how you feel from last on your list, and move it to the top.