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[BreathingAddict]

5-meo-dmt

My journey reached a climax this morning.

I got it.

It just is. 

It is fantastically simple That is the miracle of creation.

I have spent over 7 years getting to today. Through some difficult challenges. I have read, researched, prepared, and meditated. I have used all the other substances. I accept and love myself. 

Today was my first full 5 meo, experience. I have had a few beautiful low doses, of handshake experiences, I have done it with a guide who introduced me to the substance, but today it was me alone in the forest. Me in nature, alone. When I did it with a guide he told me I was a natural, and it felt very natural to me. I have seen the videos and read the reports on the dangers of this substance, and I perhaps somewhat arrogantly or recklessly decided that the dangers did not apply to me. 

It is impossible for me to describe the intensity and the beauty of the experience I had this morning, It is alarming even how quickly it appears to be fading from my memory.

I have been trying to find people similar to myself to connect with, but it is not easy.

I am a married man in his 50s with young adult kids. Psychedelics seem to be made for me. In my 7 years, on multiple substances. I have not had an experience, that has not been beautiful and valuable. My life has improved in all aspects. I am healthier, happier, I am less stressed. I love life. I have found some people who are on the path I am but I do not know whether it is due to my lucky biology, or my outlook but I seem to be blessed in many respects.

What sets me apart from others I have met on the way:

1. I always have very positive experiences, others I have met seem to have milder or more negative experiences.
2. I do not have any significant underlying traumas that I am aware of. I am not trying to heal anything.
3. I do have a wonderful time on these substances but I treat them with respect and am not frivolous.
4. I am brave - (reckless?), I am ready to try to explore further into my psyche and the nature of reality and existence. 

How do I go back to my mediocre job during the week, when I have been god on the Weekends? "Before enlightenment; chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment; chop wood, carry water.”

I know that it is unlikely to succeed but I am looking to form a real-world relationship with others with who I could share my experiences with. 

Resonate is a nice word, it gels nicely with the vibration one feels from 5-meo.

I live in Israel

[Breakingthewall]

I understand you very well. I sometimes do 5 meo, and when I come back I think: what now? what do I do with life? for what? the only answer that comes to me is: be perfect. fully align with the perfection that you are. there is nothing else to do. eliminate the superfluous. purify yourself to the maximum

[halfknots]

Greetings brother, I saw your post on Reddit earlier today. Thank you for sharing yourself with us, this glorious homecoming. It just Is.

[thepixelmonk]

Beautiful. Thank you for sharing ?

11 hours ago, BreathingAddict said:

What sets me apart from others I have met on the way:

1. I always have very positive experiences, others I have met seem to have milder or more negative experiences.
2. I do not have any significant underlying traumas that I am aware of. I am not trying to heal anything.
3. I do have a wonderful time on these substances but I treat them with respect and am not frivolous.
4. I am brave - (reckless?), I am ready to try to explore further into my psyche and the nature of reality and existence. 

I can identify with much of this and am just preparing to dive into the 5MeO experience myself after many experiences with milder psychedelics.

[Leo Gura]

@BreathingAddict Congrats man!

[Brittle_buddha]

Greetings brother! I also saw your reddit post. I'm the guy who was talking about the MALT. Your experience is so beautiful. Congratulations on this breakthrough. 

[BreathingAddict]

3 hours ago, Brittle_buddha said:

Greetings brother! I also saw your reddit post. I'm the guy who was talking about the MALT. Your experience is so beautiful. Congratulations on this breakthrough. 

I feel as if I am meeting again with old friends. . 

@Leo Gura you have done the world a service by creating this forum, a real gift. Thank YOU.

I woke up this morning in such an incredible way after a deep sleep.

No one told me about the morning after, how incredible it could be. 

I opened my eyes and reality reformed, I went to the window and looked out with such joy and levity in my heart. The simple beauty of the rising sun and the cool air on my skin, what a miracle it is, and I, we are all the creators. A shiver, it felt as if my soul was singing, a duet with my skin.

A sip of coffee gave me a mini reactivation. 

My morning meditation was almost a levitation.

And now I am trying to work when I would rather be dancing.

 

[BreathingAddict]

12 hours ago, halfknots said:

Greetings brother, I saw your post on Reddit earlier today. Thank you for sharing yourself with us, this glorious homecoming. It just Is.

It just is

I swear to you I said it ............and these mini activations. They are so beautiful.

I would never have done this without the support of these forums.

This network of wonderful people reaches across the planet sharing the most precious commodities of all information and experience.

[BreathingAddict]

3 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

@BreathingAddict Congrats man!

Thank you,

 

Know that if you accomplish nothing else in life, you have helped make the life of one man better.

[Vercingetorix]

You can join The "Israeli actualized.org fans" Whatsup group

[Happy Lizard]

Seeing that you say that you say you are in uour late 50s, Would you recommande for a young guy over 26 ?

Edited November 13, 2022 by Happy Lizard

[Brittle_buddha]

9 hours ago, BreathingAddict said:

I feel as if I am meeting again with old friends. . 

@Leo Gura you have done the world a service by creating this forum, a real gift. Thank YOU.

I woke up this morning in such an incredible way after a deep sleep.

No one told me about the morning after, how incredible it could be. 

I opened my eyes and reality reformed, I went to the window and looked out with such joy and levity in my heart. The simple beauty of the rising sun and the cool air on my skin, what a miracle it is, and I, we are all the creators. A shiver, it felt as if my soul was singing, a duet with my skin.

A sip of coffee gave me a mini reactivation. 

My morning meditation was almost a levitation.

And now I am trying to work when I would rather be dancing.

 

Ha.. Always seem to work the next day too. One day I will schedule a sitting with plenty of time off afterwards. 

Enjoy these potent echos. 

[Bufo Alvarius]

@halfknots Could you share the link?

[BreathingAddict]

23 hours ago, Happy Lizard said:

Seeing that you say that you say you are in uour late 50s, Would you recommande for a young guy over 26 ?

Early 50s,

I think that you will know when you are ready, but, I only have a sample size of one.

Only someone with a broader experience with many different people could recommend this.

[BreathingAddict]

On 11/13/2022 at 5:56 PM, Tahuti said:

Go deeper.

I think I was as deep as possible, it felt that way.