I have a shadow against power and authority. I struggle imagining myself holding any kind of power and authority. There's subconscious shadow that views such things as strict, dominating and sometimes bad/selfish.  Whereas a subservient position feels cute, innocent and pure.  This causes me to lag sometimes over projects and activities where I need to be more in control or charge.  I always need someone to instruct me as though I can't do it on my own.  How to get over this shadow?