The Dance Between The Internal And External

[Travistiamo]

Hello all, 

so i am at the point where the daunting questions on my mind are: how do i become fulfilled, self-actualized, happy and whole whilst being subject to meeting external needs as well; financial independency, my own privacy etc. I do not have yet a business of my own or some creation out of my deepest passions or so that will fulfil these external needs,

so i am on this journey to find such a way to do so, 

i realised that one of my passions is travel; meeting and connecting with people from all over the world, experiencing different lifestyles and cultures and so on. 

so I've quitted my office job; i've seen it as a higher calling to pursue that which i truly love, and to let go of that which no longer serves me, 

it was a difficult decision, because all of my heart told me to quit, yet i was stuck on these limiting beliefs and fears of money problems and having a secure job and waiting for the right time etc., but i found all that to be bullshit and i no longer want to be motivated by money, i want to be motivated by my passions and that which bring me alive, 

so i quit, and in doing so, new challenges arise of course; i've travelled alone, and i found myself to be so dauntingly incomplete, i found myself so needy, and i've never felt so dauntingly alone and empty in my life, therefore, there is that need to become whole, which i found works through thoughtful reflection, meditation and this self-actualizing work,

however, that leaves me not pursuing anything physical, and my funds are depleting.,.,.so i'm at that dance between the internal and external, trying to fulfil both, hopefully from the inside out, but i'm not sure how long that is going to take, and what my next step and beyond that will be..,

So this is where i am at this point in my life.,.,

[Guest]

21 hours ago, Travistiamo said:

so I've quitted my office job; i've seen it as a higher calling to pursue that which i truly love, and to let go of that which no longer serves me, 

Start by being practical.  You must first take care of the needs to survive in this physical world, or you will not be able to proceed with your wonderful plans.  

You can learn a lot about life and eventually accomplish many things even with simple beginnings. 
Consider your physical welfare, that is part of wisdom also. 
Having wonderful plans for yourself is nice,
but if you cannot take care of yourself your plans are but a dream.
 

21 hours ago, Travistiamo said:

it was a difficult decision, because all of my heart told me to quit, yet i was stuck on these limiting beliefs and fears of money problems and having a secure job and waiting for the right time etc., but i found all that to be bullshit and i no longer want to be motivated by money, i want to be motivated by my passions and that which bring me alive, 

In the above statement you say "my heart told me to quit".  Are you sure your heart told you?  Do you know what your heart is?  Is it not your emotions that have taken control and are preventing logical wise thinking.  In this world you need a healthy ability to make logical decisions and not jump to emotional conclusions. When you have acquired some self mastery, then you may be able work more intuitively, but even then intuition is often beleaguered by emotion. So watch out!  A warning to the wise.

Look carefully - you say you had limiting beliefs and fears of money problems.   Do you not still have them, but are now not looking at it that way? Are you fooling yourself?  Are you telling yourself lies? 

You say you want to travel and you do not want to be motivated by money.  But you need money to travel.  Money is not bad.   Your passion for Travel is a dream right now.  So let your dream motivate you to do the right things.   Let your dreams motivate you to get the job you like, to earn the money you need to support yourself (because you do not want to burden someone else to support you), and so on.

How are you going to do it?  Now you must look into what is possible.  What are your skills, your education, your abilities that are useful to others.  All of this and more must be considered, otherwise you cannot begin to fulfil yourself.  Fulfilment is often right in front of you, from the simplest beginnings.  It does not have to be flashy.  It does not mean getting everything you want to get out of life.  That is not fulfilment.  Some people have "everything" and their life is a mess.  They are lost.  They want to find themselves before it is too late.

There is much more to say on this, but I do not know the depth of your understanding at the moment so please consider the logical needs for self support first.   Other things will then follow in a natural order.  Your mind must have order first, or nothing is possible.

You need food and shelter and a way to support yourself.   If you can accomplish this then you can do much more.

joy

 

Edited February 13, 2016 by walt

[Guest]

dang

[Travistiamo]

@Guest Thank you, this is such brilliant advise! I'm glad i posted my situation at that time and how i felt and thought about it. It did motivate me to seek practical results!

[Travistiamo]

So i'm here now, almost a month exactly later, yes i have decided to follow my dream, my goal of travel, i pursued it a bit intensely and now i've landed a job on a cruise ship (hooray!!! :D), 

i feel as though i went through so many motions to get here though.,i've had to completely lock out everything and everyone and focus solely on my desires, i feel so detached now and that phase isn't over yet because i'm still on my way to actually beginning this new chapter.,.,.the obstacle i'm facing now is health wise, something's affecting my liver's ability to effectively breakdown red blood cells, causing a build-up of bilirubin which is making symptoms of jaundice appear,.,this is new so i'm pretty scared,.,this will hinder my progress of course but i'm just trying to have faith, and as i watched leo's new video, i have to try to be a strategic motherfucker and get my shit together (get my health in check), and continue on my journey of bringing my goal to fruition and beyond that.,

any advise or anyone with experience on this health-wise topic, please let me know., i'm eating healthier, i may have to construct a new diet but even more interestingly, i'm trying this "Heal Thyself" meditation, it's amazing, but i have to keep trying it till i get results:

 

 

[Travistiamo]

That cruise ship job hasn't come to fruition yet because of the condition..but cause of it, i've looked deeper and decided to work on Leo's life purpose course..i'm still at home but trying to get through the course and i'm wondering what do i do, do i go on the cruise ship and work for eight months.,., i mightn't even enjoy the work, it's for the travel of course.. (it might pull through cause i'm fully compensated health wise) or do i give up that and decide to work in the dark on my life purpose that i have yet to find..................i'm worried about finances because i'm not working, i refuse to get another office job because that for me has no passion whatsoever...so what do i do?

[Beam]

Do everything you can to ensure you get on that cruise ship and start working and socializing

 

You have a grand opportunity in front of you right now , don't let it pass you by. You  will have a good opportunity for growth with that job , inter-personally wise not so much a career.

 

 You can still study and keep meditating when your at sea

Edited August 2, 2016 by Beam

[Travistiamo]

@Beam Thank you Beam