Holding self realization in constant awareness

[Zedman]

Should I work towards that? Are enlightened masters in it at all times? How often and how long are you in it? What degree are you in?

When I amp up this realization during meditation it slowly but noticeably starts becoming magical and divine. However when I ''force'' it during daytime activities its just meh and sometimes degrades purely to a level of thought. I am simply wasting my time being aware of a thought and not the real thing because of distractions.