Leo changed my whole life

[Raven1998]

LEO changed my whole LIFE

 it all started with one afternoon. i had just a little curiosity about what is reality. i thought that reality is might not be as it apears to be. so i just went on searching in youtube "what is reality". thats  when i come in contact with leos video titled as "what is reality" . i just watched his video in awe. i couldnt digest what he is saying. because i never heard anything like this before, but i had this intuition in me. its so radical. it shook me at my core. i really greatful watching that video until today. and i had nothing to do with my life in particularly. i was 22 and i was following a course. and i had more time. so i watched his videos as many as possible. i was getting exsited, and amazed what he is saying in each video. 

these are some videos that mostly changed me 
"what is reality"
"self bias"
most effected video so far is "open mindedness"
"what is truth"
"what is conciousness" 
"how to discover what is true"
"actuality"
"recontexualization"
"contemplation"
all most every video i watched.

  i took everything so literally. it broke my mind. it broke my worldview, and everything i beleive. i didnt took anything as truth after that. i remember watching tv with my mom and asking what is tv. ? i saw  everything as a question. 

i was also contemplating at that time. as i was watching these videos, i was came in contact with this particular video where leo explains the self i considered to be me is just a negative space carved by its surrounding. i couldnt watch this video. when i was in half way through in this video, i just had to stop the video. i had this very strange feeling in the body mixed with great sense of fear of non existence. and i stopped the video and went for a walk, and finished the video after.

 something phenominal happened that day. it felt like some part of me died. and i was intuitive that i am not who i thought i was. but i didnt know who i was. 
in one video, leo mentions a technique called "neti neti" technique. so i searched for it. and i watched it with open mind. but nothing happened. i just kept watching that video again and again to find out who i was. but nothing happened. and i end up in frustration, anger, hopelessness. and i just wanted to stop all this thing with truth seeking and focus on my life. 

so i decided to stop all this, after giving it a one last chance. so i took a pen and paper, and sat down with the frustration. this time i didnt took anything from anyone. i just contemplated my experience. i didnt took leos word for it. i just asked who i am and explored my experience.. and in one point, i just realized that i am not my body, mind, or whatever i thought myself to be. but i am the experiencer. and it just occured to me that, if this experiencer is not present, then there wont be anything.
and with that realisation, my mind and body went crazy. i literally felt like i was dying. im not over exaggerating this. it literally felt like i was dying physically. my body is vibrating like crazy. my heart pounding. i was alone at home. my personal self disappeared. and i was shivering, and vibrating. that experience lasted for half an hour and gradually went away. and i was left with this beutiful sensations in the body and crystal clear mind. its like you went most rush and noizy city  from complete silent sound proof room. man, there is nothing  in this world that i can compare with that experience. its so beutiful, so profound, i just cried like a child for how long i dont know. there is no other word that i can call it other that "BLISS". after all that, i went to sleep that day, and i was never slept. i can sense that my body is sleeping. but i was fully awake. i was totally aware of my surroundings. i didnt wanted sleep so much, because this experience is so beutiful and satisfying. i woke up early in the morning to meditate. but there is no any tiredness or anything like that. everything is just so easy. and i went for a walk. everything is vibrating with bliss. and i listened to a song, that felt like im in heaven. i never had that experience before when i listening to songs.

this experience happened two years ago. and my life completely changed after that experience.but that experience lasted only for a week. and went away. but my understanding in the mind never went away. only the bodily feeling went away. understanding remained. 

i had my second experience when i was noticing this awareness, while watching rupert spira's video about awareness has no inside or outside. i deeply explored that with my experience. and i just felt like i was everywhere. i literally felt it. i was everything and everyone, not as a idea, but experiatialy i knew it. i was my mother, my father, my sister, and i was leo too. that experience took me more deeper. and i remebered the leos videos about this. and i said to myself "this is what he says again and again. finally it happened. it is real." 

i wanted to write this long time ago. but never had the chance.The one thing that leos videos different from others is, he explains everything with in very details, so anyone can uderstand what he is talking about. even he stumbled upon his videos for first time. he has a unique way of teaching.  All i wanted to say is, to say big thanks to leo.. a.k.a "ME". i am so greateful for finding his teaching. and i couldnt beleive this free and people are not interested in this. thank you man. keep doing your brilliant work to awoke people from this dream. 

[Leo Gura]

Very dood, but your work ain't done.

Edited October 24, 2022 by Leo Gura

[Ulax]

Congrats on the seeming progress bro!

I look forward to hearing how things continue to progress for ya.

[Raven1998]

wow.. thank you leo for reply.. im so grateful for finding you.

[Raven1998]

58 minutes ago, Ulax said:

Congrats on the seeming progress bro!

I look forward to hearing how things continue to progress for ya.thank you leo for reply. so grateful for finding you.

 

thank you for replying.. 

[omar30]

@Raven1998

congratulations bro ✨