Most emotionally difficult things to do for filmmaking?

[Theprofessional]

Basically, I want to become a master filmmaker with a niche in cinematography / lighting over the next 10-12 years. That is my goal. In Leo's "Way to Ace Life" video he says when in doubt, you should do the thing that is emotionally most difficult.

I feel very lost with this filmmaking goal of mine, as I've had this goal for a couple of years now, and little to no results have come out of it. What can I even do that is "emotionally difficult" for filmmaking? Maybe I'm just shying away from this lofty goal, but I'm having a hard time coming up with anything for this.

 

[Raze]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X8DE0pcO0Do

[LordFall]

Filmmaking is very emotionally difficult. Especially the editing part and being able to judge your own work, having the mental strength to put the project together and respect deadlines, booking your clients and getting sales, etc. 

You say you haven't gotten much done, which step are you stuck at? 

[Yarco]

On 10/23/2022 at 2:47 AM, Theprofessional said:

I feel very lost with this filmmaking goal of mine, as I've had this goal for a couple of years now, and little to no results have come out of it.

What can I even do that is "emotionally difficult" for filmmaking? 

Sounds like what is emotionally difficult for you, is doing the stuff that generates results.

When's the last time you made a video and put it out there for people to see? Make a video.

The emotionally difficult bits are all the parts where you're met with resistance... where you procrastinate and delay. It might be writing a script, finding cast members to be in your film, filming it, editing it, publishing it, hearing feedback and taking it to heart to improve yourself... or all of it. 

[EternalForest]

When in doubt, rewatch your favorite films and series for lessons and inspiration.

[Theprofessional]

@LordFall  I made films all the time when I was in middle school and high school, and then it started getting embarrassing so I switched to writing screenplays instead. I'm now a very good screenwriter, but my actual film-making skills have declined to almost nothing, and I'm worried I'll never get any confidence back to make anything.

Over the past 2 years, I've made some awful rap music videos for local artists and that's basically it. I've also gone into production on 2 short films, with multiple local actors, and things have coincidentally happened each time that cancelled them before photography was completed. Locals making trouble and interfering, actors dropping out, producers turning out to be abusive, etc.

Basically, boiled down, it's that my own planning with these films has been so poor that every time a minor inconvenience has popped up, it has destroyed the entire project.

 

[Ulax]

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