___ c_ raindrops and coffee

[Tyler Robinson]

I'm feeling like puking right now and the feeling is pretty intense. It's driving me crazy with this unusual weariness, pain and headache. Right now I'm imagining rain drops and that's the only thing that's providing some relief. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Sometimes I cannot deal with life. 

I wish I could die in a loving embrace. 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

How do you cope with the feeling of desperation? How do you entertain yourself when you are feeling bored and bogged down? 

I don't feel like listening to sad songs.. Recently I discovered feeling rain drops over my roof helps. Just the feeling of rain drops touching my skin felt slightly better during a moment where I felt extreme loss of will. 

Do you use music or food as a coping strategy. If not, then what else. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

For better or for worse. 

Did things happen for a good reason? 

It's better to be hit with reality than to live in a fake world. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

It's like I want every man on planet earth. And I feel so dissatisfied when I cannot get a man. 

Men make me crazy. They drive me nuts. 

Especially real masculine energy. It makes me very weak. 

The sexual tension builds up. And then I don't know what to do 

I wish I was dead. I wouldn't need to have romantic dreams 

 

I wouldn't crave for a man's embrace so badly.