From Half-assed Medical Student To Worldclass Cardiologist

[Diane]

Amazing things that happened today:

• I was authentic and confident;
• I ran!!!
• I was focused.

Ways I could have made today better:

• Being more present at the internship.

Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist:

• Going to the internship;
• Studying;
• Reviewing some of the questions of the bar exam'written part.

What I learned:

• To accept what I can't change.

[Diane]

Amazing things that happened today:

• I got a pedicure!!! 
• Everything went well at the internship even if I felt sleepy most of the time;
• I ran!!!

Ways I could have made today better:

• Being more present and less into my head.

Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist:

• Going to the internship;
• Reviewing some of the questions of the bar exam's written part.

What I learned:

• When the going gets tough, the tough get going!! The level of anxiety I feel has been slowly but steadly increasing in the last few days. I recognize though that this is the life I chose to live and there's a price to get it so dear life 

[Diane]

Things I'm excited about today:

• Studying!!! 
• Being on purpose.
• My beautiful new skirt!! 

[Diane]

Amazing things that happened today:

• I prioritized studying and went to the library to study this morning! I'm becoming more and more "on purpose" as I wrote this morning, it's almost unbelievable thinking of how things used to be not so long ago...
• It was a bright sunny day!! 
• This video:

I kind of stumbled on it.. I'm grateful that I found it and that I now allow myself to give some space in my days also to things like that even if "I should be studying 24/7"... I was deeply  fascinated by the author interviewed, she's a good example of how I want my life purpose to be like (plus the being an actual doctor and a worldclass Cardiologist components, of course!! ).

The discussion also reminded me of Sadness in the movie "Inside out", I loved her so much!!!! 

No,  no, no dear, you're perfect as you are!! It's something I keep saying to my past self in her worst moments... Wherever you are,  I love you D!!!

Ways I could have made today better:

• Running!!!

Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist:

• Studying;
• Reviewing some of the questions of the bar exam's written part;
• This video:

(Yes, I love Marie Forleo that much!!! ) What striked me was the part where she talks about feeling at home.. I had almost forgotten about it but it's the same sensation I felt the first time I did a voluntary internship in Cardiology last year... Home. It was a good reminder of the fact that recently I haven't been so much in touch with Cardiology, I now added it to my evening routine.

What I learned:

• To tip on the tightrope!! 

 

Edited June 18, 2016 by Diane

[Diane]

Things I'm excited about today:

• Listening to Leo's new video!!!
• Listening to some of Elliott Hulse's videos, he really has the power to get me back on track when I start feeling lost and being lazy!!
• Being positive!! 

[Diane]

Amazing things that happened today:

• I practiced public speaking. At the church we went to today they have the habit of letting people say their prayers publicly if they want to. Mine was more of a reflection than a prayer but still, I had the courage to express it even if it somehow meant exposing my weaknesses.. I spoke about how sometimes we get so cought up in doing that we forget the general picture and its beauty and then anxiety comes accompanied by its friends sense of lack, of not being enough & co... Oh, authenticity!! I was almost shaking while saying those things, then at the end of the Mass everybody was there thanking me for my beautiful prayer... Unbelievable.
• I smiled in the face of my anxiety. I was like "yes, there's tons of things to do and very little time but can't you see how life is amazing?!".. 
• I'm writing here, I almost didn't!!

Ways I could have made today better:

• Waking up earlier.

Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist:

• Studying.

What I learned:

• I am allowed to be myself around everyone in this world. The best of life comes just from there.

[Diane]

On 11/2/2016 at 5:56 PM, Diane said:

About me:

 

I figured I should add my mission statement. Here it is:

 

My life purpose

• To do plenty of research and public speaking to make people healthier through consciousness.

My zone of genius

• Research and public speaking.

My domain of mastery

• Cardiology.

My ideal medium

• Public speaking.

My top 10 values:

1. Personal growth
2. Passion
3. Professionalism
4. Honesty
5. Optimism
6. Learning
7. Friendship
8. Contribution
9. Travel
10. Beauty

My top 5 strengths:

1. Love of learning
2. Gratitude
3. Spirituality, sense of purpose and faith
4. Diligence, industry and perseverance
5. Hope, optimism and future-mindedness

Edited June 20, 2016 by Diane

[Diane]

Things I'm excited about today:

• Being present at the internship;
• Being kind to myself;
• Being enthusiastic!! 

[Diane]

Amazing things that happened today:

• My little brother passed the year!!!
• We spent an enjoyable night out to celebrate my brother's promotion.
• I had a very eye-opening chat with my tutor at the internship about the fact of not doing things just because the x/y professor said so or does it that way..
• I wore again my new skirt, it's so beatiful I can't not write about it!!  It looks like this one:

 

I love it so much!!!  It's interesting because also the way I dress kind of mirror my values now: at work/internship I dress business casual, which reflects the value of professionalism and now I have this love for African print dresses wich I think comes from the valuing of beauty..

Ways I could have made today better:

• Studying;
• Waking up earlier.

Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist:

• Going to the internship;
• Reviewing some of the questions of the bar exam's written part.

What I learned:

• To think critically and be indipendent also from the opinion of the "experts".

Edited June 22, 2016 by Diane

[Diane]

Things I'm excited about today:

• Sucking all the juices out of this day!!
• Being positive!!
• Going to the gym!!! 

[Diane]

Amazing things that happened today:

• I helped my tutor with the two operations he had to do!!
• I was very lucky in more than one occasion. In one of them so almost fell from my bike, instead just the bike fell while I literally landed on my feet!!!
• This evening's workout session at the gym was amazing!!! 

Ways I could have made today better:

• Studying

Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist:

• Going to the internship;
• Reviewing some of the questions of the bar exam's written part.

What I learned:

• I have amazing strength within me!!! 

[Diane]

Things I'm excited about today:

• Studying!!!
• Being present at the internship;
• This evening's group meditation.

[Diane]

Amazing things that happened today:

• People keep stopping me to tell me how beautiful I am..  It reminds me of this video: 

• I met a friend I hadn't seen for a while at this evening's group meditation!! 
• It was a great day in general, this morning I went to the internship, then I came back home for lunch, went to study at the library and finally to the group meditation. I love the fact that now I see every day as an indipendent unit that needs to be lived as if it was an entire life so that I am able to be more balanced day to day. Balanced days create a balanced life, it's going to be my new motto!!! 

Ways I could have made today better:

• Running!!!

Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist:

• Going to the internship;
• Studying;
• Reviewing some of the questions of the bar exam's written part.

What I learned:

At the stage I'm at right now I'd use the term "authenticity" instead of "truth" but still.. 

 

Edited June 23, 2016 by Diane

[Diane]

Things I'm excited about today:

• Being active!!!
• Studying!!!
• Being present at the internship.

[Diane]

Amazing things that happened today:

• Everything went well at the internship.
• I was determined.
• Little by little I'm building "the stronger version of myself" as Elliott Hulse calls it!! 

Ways I could have made today better:

• Running!!

Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist:

• Going to the internship;
• Studying;
• Preparing for the bar exam's written test.

What I learned:

• "Pain is weakness leaving the body".

[Diane]

Things I'm excited about today:

• Being enthusiastic!!
• Studying studying studying!!! 
• Going on with the audiobook of The way of the superior man. Thank you David Deida!!! 

[Diane]

Amazing things that happened today:

• I even manifest people now!!  Recently I had been thinking about this guy I met last summer while working and then, as if by magic, there he was at the library where I went to study this morning!!! 
• I'm becoming more and more focused and determined.  
• This morning at 5.30am I was out running! It was just me and the street, wonderful!!! 
• A new bud is blooming from my already gorgeous orchid, oh abundance!!! 

Ways I could have made today better:

• Being even more focused and determined.

Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist:

• Studying;
• Preparing for the written part of the bar exam.

What I learned:

• "Being exceptional is not fate, it's a decision". Eddie Pinero

[Diane]

Things I'm excited about today:

• Studying, as always!! 
• Giving my best to everything I do!!
• Being enthusiastic!!! 

[Diane]

Amazing things that happened today:

• I managed to rein my anxiety!! Knowing that I actually can't even fathom how emotionally difficult is this journey going to be is kinda scary, until now I was all happy and confident about the fact that from the last exam on it couldn't but be a downhill forever... Fortunately I also know that it's worth it!! 
• I really stand within a universe of possibilities!! 
• I ran at 5.30am again!!! 

Ways I could have made today better:

(It's becoming more and more difficult to find ways I could have made my days better, lovely!!! )

• Being more present and less careless while talking with my mum.

Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist:

• Studying;
• Preparing for the written test of the bar exam.

What I learned:

• That it's going to take everything I have and even more to reach my goal. I already knew it but Leo's new video was a great reminder of the fact that results may not come on the first try, neither on the second or the third... I can only keep on keeping on..  

[Diane]

Amazing things that happened today:

• This morning's internship was very fruitful, I learned and did a lot!!
• I can proudly say that I'm proud of this first half of the year!! 
• I ran this morning too, at 5.15am I was out of the door!!! 

Ways I could have made today better:

• Trusting myself a little more.

Ways I got closer to becoming a wordclass Cardiologist:

• Going at the internship and being active and present there;
• Studying. I'm actually preparing for the national competitive exam to get into a school of specialization too but I've never written it... Hello fear of failure!! 
• Preparing for the written test of the bar exam.

What I learned:

• Cheerfulness is really the best attitude towards everything. I practiced it without even realizing it and my day was indeed amazing!!!