Conscious selfishness > fake selflessness

[Vynce]

So after about 12 months of mentally masturbating about selflessness as the highest goal and purpose of life, I have enough. Implementing selflessness on the microscopic scale into every decision stalls me out. Being purposefully patient, kind and „happy“ with others just because some enlightenment experience felt like this has not worked towards anything meaningful this year.

In fear of disturbing my selfless Karma I did not start a business, did not start an online presence, did not dared to start meaningful relationships, did not travel, did not work a challenging job, did not contacted important people for my life purpose. Because all these things require you to ignore the comfort of something and be selfish for some time. In the end they can enrich reality with love and selflessness, but especially in the beginning you have to be selfish. Nothing I find meaningful and inspiring right now has ever been done from a selfless „buddha-hood“ style of being. At least not from the start. Take Leo for example: his videos, his blog posts, his affordable life purpose course can be understood as an accomplishment of „selfless Love“. However, his initial starting energy was always „I can make, say, write, and think about XY better than anyone else. Let’s see if I can do it better“.

If Leo was completely selfless he would be totally ok with mediocre teachings and would even support false worldviews for the sake of absolute selflessness.

I would go on and apply this logic to every world class sportsman, thinker, author, musician, artist, comedian, sales man, speaker … No one of them has ever started without some degree of selfishness.

I wish I learned about this dynamic earlier. Awakening experiences with psychedelics have deeply moralized me to be „God like“ on a microscopic scale while completely ignoring the greater Love of pursuing macroscopic goals, which demand some „non-God like“ decision short term.

This approach entails ignoring the pointless trash-drama-talk of my neighbors, „friends“, relatives of the past and family. This means to cut out the contact to my twin sister, because she has never brought anything meaningful in my life. This means to dump the ideas of philosophers, spiritual teachers and intelligent book authors if it does not bring peace or spirit into my life. That means to dump hobbies, people and ideas if they do not match my intrinsic values. This means to disappoint everyone, who expected something from me, which does not align with me emotionally and spiritually.

This means to be selfish on the microscopic scale. However, this is authentic Love towards reality. This is excitement. This means purposing my inner values. This is following my visions. This is living in tune with instinct and emotions. This is the thrill of having abundant possibilities. This is the Joy of living at my current sequence of consciousness. 

[gettoefl]

first half of life is to look after no. 1 second half of life is to realize no. 1 is actually a synonym for no one and live this understanding

namely you've got to make something of yourself to have spirituality have anything meaningful to contribute to life

if you achieved precisely nothing, how can surrender and sacrifice and serenity mean anything

climb that mountain and don't let no muther stand in your way

[Osaid]

Good point. There is a nuance to be addressed when it comes to being selfless and thriving in the survival domain at the same time.

IMO, higher levels of selflessness can come later once you've burned through your materialistic desires and achieved stability in the material domain, otherwise you will be at a detrimental position materially and you won't really be able to accomplish things on a grander scale from that position. How are you gonna help the world when you're living paycheck to paycheck? 

Leo does talk about this balancing act between survival and selfishness, but maybe not enough.