___ h_vulnerability attracts predators

[Tyler Robinson]

There's simply no solution for whatever I'm going through. 

 

Edited October 2, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

The more I cry, the more I breakdown, nothing is ever going to actually work. I will end up feeling wasted, drained and another week of depression will set in. 

 

I've been preyed on horribly to the point that I don't trust humanity anymore. I'm wary of the online world. 

I trusted people and they betrayed me in the most unthinkable ways. I was on the verge of suicide and I was extremely lonely. 

Angry, sad and depressed. Those were my emotions. I felt like a whore who was prostituting herself day after day so that a Pimp would allow me to live. 

 

I sometimes just don't want this existence. 

Whatever emotional support I ever got, it always came at a huge price. 

It's unbelievable what I was put through

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Today I feel suicidal again. This forum should have been a source of help and empathy. It has been a source of torment rather. I hate mean comments and they really upset me. 

 

Whats the point of asking for help. There will be another rude comment. It can really set you back and bring you down. 

I don't wish to go back to the same predators who fed on me. It's vicious. 

It's a cycle that keeps feeding into a loop where I feel sad and vulnerable and I end up succumbing to pressure and then the person who is supposed to help me starts preying on me. And then I give into those people who don't really have the best interests in mind for me. They are not really interested in knowing what works for me but rather hammering their own self righteous opinion down my throat. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I fell for this so many times. Nothing comes out of it. But the mind craves for attention. It craves for affection. It craves for support and love.. It craves for someone to understand and hear me out, like a true friend who actually cares. 

It craves for attachment, belongingness like a child craves for a parent. 

It craves for love and acceptance which it never truly receives or enjoys. 

Such is the sad state of humanity that those who need money never find it and those who truly seek love never receive it. 

 

Your innocence, your immaturity and your trust is exploited.. 

Edited October 2, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

At the end of the day, there's only one thing that is left - an epiphany. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

 

My usual experience has been that the people who always acted like they wanted to help me were always the ones who preyed on me first and foremost out of everyone else. 

They made me feel secure. They did everything for egoic reasons. These are narcissists. 

I can never trust people ever again. Especially those who act nice and polite and sweet and try to gain access into my world. 

[Tyler Robinson]

It's my Vulnerability ultimately that attracts predators.