Authenticity

[SelfHelpGuy]

I’m struggling with authenticity.

What if authentically i am grumpy.

but i authentically don’t want to bring the mood down when I’m around people so I try to have a more open and kind expression (when if I was alone I would allow my grumpy expression to remain and maybe make a groan or two)

 

What if I genuinely don’t care what someone is talking about and feel no connection to them, but since it would be mean to express such a thing and likely hurt them, I try to seem interested, I make some sort of conversation. 
 

Which path of authenticity does one take?

On the one hand I want people to feel welcomed in my presence, but on the other I just feel fed up with pretending and wish to let go and have my authentic slightly frustrated expression.
 

I don’t know what to do and I want to cry

[Gidiot]

Guilt is probably worse than the perceived pain of hurting someone’s feelings. The world has enough people pleasers, not enough authentic beings. Just my take

[JohnD]

It's coming to you. I suggest you ignore this feedback and wrestle with it on your own

[SelfHelpGuy]

@JohnD my intuition says just do what feels right in each and every new moment 

[SelfHelpGuy]

@Lila9 Thank you Lila.

I like that perspective.

I currently work as a cashier (both for spiritual practice and money)

So I’m encountering 100s of people a week and when I’m grumpy I find this hard to reveal to others.