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[Tyler Robinson]

Life is a constant meditation in itself.  Everything one does and thinks at any time of day, in any situation, is opportunity for meditation.  

 

When one finds it difficult to set aside time for "formal" meditation practice, it is not a problem.  

In many cases, sticking to formal formulas, such as sit-down meditations leads to rather sterile environments with barren results.

Mindfulness practice comes to the rescue.  In any situations, at all times of the day, on any occasion, one can focus and become attentive to their thoughts (watching thinking as it happens), attentive to their actions (watching one's movements and those of others).   Being attentive means not jumping to conclusions on anything, just being there, participating as you normally would, but with focused attention and care as to one's own behaviour. 

This type of mindfulness is perhaps one of the great forms of true ongoing meditation.   Everyday becomes a meditation.   "You" as a separate identity finds its natural place in daily processes, but "YOU" as the integral awareness of "BEING" is in a creative mode of discovery and most useful manifestation.  

Meditate on the above and then enter a life of meditation naturally.

Edited September 22, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

 

On 9/5/2022 at 5:11 AM, Tyler Robinson said:

 

 

Life is a constant meditation in itself.  Everything one does and thinks at any time of day, in any situation, is opportunity for meditation.  

 

When one finds it difficult to set aside time for "formal" meditation practice, it is not a problem.  

In many cases, sticking to formal formulas, such as sit-down meditations leads to rather sterile environments with barren results.

Mindfulness practice comes to the rescue.  In any situations, at all times of the day, on any occasion, one can focus and become attentive to their thoughts (watching thinking as it happens), attentive to their actions (watching one's movements and those of others).   Being attentive means not jumping to conclusions on anything, just being there, participating as you normally would, but with focused attention and care as to one's own behaviour. 

This type of mindfulness is perhaps one of the great forms of true ongoing meditation.   Everyday becomes a meditation.   "You" as a separate identity finds its natural place in daily processes, but "YOU" as the integral awareness of "BEING" is in a creative mode of discovery and most useful manifestation.  

Meditate on the above and then enter a life of meditation naturally.

 

 

On 9/5/2022 at 11:04 AM, Tyler Robinson said:

My only satisfaction is that I have to be a good person at the end of the day. 

 

 

On 9/5/2022 at 8:22 PM, Tyler Robinson said:

 

Hmm. Narcissists are never interested in something for too long. 

Funny how I'm attached to something I should have dropped long ago. 

 

 

 

On 9/5/2022 at 8:31 PM, Tyler Robinson said:

 

Comfort and satisfaction, really the end of it. 

Once you got that, you basically got everything. 

Maybe this is another test of my strength. 

Those who believe in me are the ones I should believe in. 

Hold that circle closer. You are safe 

 

Yea.... Emotional safety was the keyword. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

On 9/5/2022 at 8:36 PM, Tyler Robinson said:

 

I'm charting my own progress, my own way. I don't give a damn about anything else.. 

At least finally I have a grip on this 

 

I remember my state of mind was completely different a year ago in this same place and things were hurting me too much 

 

Now being in a different state of mind I feel a sense of comfort that had evaded me back then. 

 

 

On 9/5/2022 at 8:56 PM, Tyler Robinson said:

 

I never hated someone so much for being a slimy ass pig in my life 

 

This was the worst thing to happen to me. 

 

It's okay. Everything is a lesson. 

Choose to look away. Choose to look away. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

On 9/5/2022 at 9:28 PM, Tyler Robinson said:

 

 

I remember I used to always be into developing interesting characters. 

This character that just came to my mind. 

I named it Gaurzeugus

Interesting. I want him to be my archetype role model. 

What can I learn from him? 

I guess a lot. Right now he is a keeper. 

 

It's like I've to thrown in a bunch of NPC, Socrates and Jordan Peterson. All in one. 

 

Why shouldn't I deny everything? Why shouldn't I deny everything? 

 

 

 

On 9/6/2022 at 7:26 AM, Tyler Robinson said:

I feel like cutting out people from my life again. 

 

Funny that I'm so relevant to you. Gobsmacked. 

 

 

 

 

On 9/6/2022 at 7:37 AM, Tyler Robinson said:

 

 

To be honest I'm not even that interesting. 

I have always been the most boring person.. 

 

 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

On 9/7/2022 at 1:10 AM, Tyler Robinson said:

 

The holy trinity 

• God's love
• My love for you 
• Comfort and satisfaction, equanimity. A closed circle 

 

 

 

On 9/9/2022 at 0:17 PM, Tyler Robinson said:

I don't feel like being on this forum anymore. It sucks. 

 

 

On 9/9/2022 at 2:37 PM, Tyler Robinson said:

Concepts 

 

• Line 1, line 2, line 3......
• Bpd splitting, discuss later 
• Healthy recipes 
• Motivational resources 
• Gaurzeugus 
• Alpha Male 1 character 
• Morality doesn't exist 
• Religion - duty and morality 
• Spirituality - forgiveness and compassion, zero judgement 
• God realization 
• NPC 
• Reality is dysfunctional 
• God's love 
• My love for you 
• Closed circle 
• Acceptance of bad things - nothing is perfect. Don't wait for a perfect day 
• Comfort, satisfaction and equanimity 
• Don't look for validation 
• . Word salad 
• .IQ base 
• .zero agenda life 
• . Pure heart 
• .Que posts, station and factory line 
•  

 

 

Elements that make up perfection 

• Sexual elements. 
• Love, compassion, softness 
• Sadomasochistic elements, this is not evil, only animalistic 
• Machiavellian elements 
• Alpha Male elements 
• Feminine elements 
• There is no evil only enemy of love 
• Satan meditation 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

On 9/9/2022 at 2:59 PM, Tyler Robinson said:

 

 

I'm finally at ease with things. I got my bases covered. 

These quotes inspire me. I want to do similar stuff. 

 

 

I. Want to do activism and awareness in the future. 

 

 

 

 

When we focus too much on the negative things, it takes away our focus on things that would have had a positive impact. 

You have to ignore the noise. You have to delete the negativity out of your life. It's only then that you can begin to heal and move towards something better. 

Finally collecting my peace. 

 

 

The best part about me right now is that I'm totally unbothered. 

Unbothered about anything and everything. 

 

Focus on your goals. Focus on what you want. Start with peace. Focus on your prize.. Focus on your well-being. Focus on purpose and being rational and directed.. 

 

I was sleepy a while ago. Each one of my journals has a character. This journal has a character too. I will call it Nelhemina

 

The other characters are Alpha male 1.....and Gaurzeugus. 

 

Nelhemina is the character that constantly fills my mind with precious wisdom through quotes and parables and short instructions. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

On 9/12/2022 at 1:49 AM, Tyler Robinson said:

This forum is like a game that you play. A smart game. And I don't want to be a part of this game.

 

 

On 9/12/2022 at 3:37 AM, Tyler Robinson said:

Bullet focus now. 

I told my sister off. She stresses me out with her psychopathic nonsense. 

So I told her to shut the fuck up at least for a few days 

She doesn't realize how sensitive I am. 

Btw Emory is helping me a shit ton. 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Hmm. 

I'm feeling a bit relieved and relaxed today. 

Sexual elements. 

Love, compassion, softness 

Sadomasochistic elements, this is not evil, only animalistic 

Machiavellian elements 

Alpha Male elements 

Feminine elements 

There is no evil only enemy of love 

Satan meditation 

 

 

 

Edited September 25, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

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Edited September 25, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

I'm finally glad I'm able to close this journal section forever. I will never have to deal with the bullshit that happens on here anymore 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

The best part is that I got liberated from fucking monkeys at last 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

The best way to kill jealousy is to be extremely happy. 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Time to focus on productive stuff 

 

It's time to move on with my life. I prepared my bed lol. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Blum Blum Blum.... 

Time to eat something.