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[Tyler Robinson]

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Continuing with all those incidents. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Maybe I'm a sex addict. I don't know.. But I see sex as affection. And I desperately crave for this affection. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

It feels like something was stolen from me with respect to sex. 

 

Those beautiful wet dreams were stolen from me. 

 

My right to deserve male affection was stolen from me. 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Being horny was the only way to deal with lack of male affection in my life. 

[Tyler Robinson]

Sex is about survival and that's why sex is so important. 

And that's why sex remains stuck in the head and doesn't go away. 

It's our most fundamental instinct apart from the flight or fight response. 

Sex is like food. It's ingrained in our DNA to find this food any which way we can. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Random thoughts. 

♡ I wish I had sex with an extremely attractive man 

 

♡ I wish I never had fears, shadows and insecurities around sex. 

 

♡ I wish I was never  virgin.. But being a virgin also seems weirdly comforting. 

 

♡  I wish I could get abundant male affection. 

 

♡  men used to always want sex with me. Sometimes I regret saying no. Sometimes I feel it was the best thing to do 

 

 

Edited November 9, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

Random thoughts. 

 

 

This topic is a bit triggering to me. 

 

 

Dirty talk is such a soft spot for me. It's all I ever wanted. 

 

 

Edited November 9, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

Random thoughts. 

♡ I jump with joy when someone dirty talks with me. Not someone. But someone that I'm attracted to. 

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[Tyler Robinson]

Random thoughts 

♡ thinking about sex is weirdly satisfying. 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

birds learn mating calls and show their skills by flanking their plumes and feathers to attract mates. Ya know. You weren't told to sing or dance. Just talk. You want a woman to be wet and you should not even put any effort into that, sounds like baloney. And exactly what will make her wet? You'll do nothing to turn her on? 

If your dirty talk isn't working... 

One pro tip - if you dirty talk in a rapey way that's too aggressive or vulgar or without context, it can give some serious scary vibes, and actually be a huge turn off. Social calibration and social tact, being pleasant and gentle and coercive without being hostile, rapey, aggressive is the key to be successful with dirty talk. Also don't take it overboard, it shouldn't appear like you're trying too hard and keep it minimum and artistic. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Look I was dishonest and I own it. I fell in love. I was naive and I did whatever to steal your love. I realized that I hurt you. I am over it. I admit I was wrong. But I'm not a bad person. I didn't do anything out of Malice or greed. I didn't do anything with intent to harm or deceive. I didn't do anything on purpose. I didn't do anything with an agenda or motive. I didn't do anything out of the need to manipulate. It's like children who steal toys without realizing it's wrong. I did it. I own it. 

Regarding if I still love you...... I don't know. I think I do.... It's not romantic.. But my heart still bleeds for you. If anything happens to you, I'm still going to be impacted by it. 

I'm a lover. Not an enemy. If I love a man I don't forget it... I don't forget him.. 

[Tyler Robinson]

I just want to forget everything. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

3 songs helped me

 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I had no intention to hurt you. I'm a deeply emotional person. 

I was just going through so much. Sometimes words are not enough to explain deep feelings. 

I was battling a lot of issues last year. I was dragged into a relationship that I never wanted. I told the guy that I didn't want another traumatizing event in my life. But he kept persisting. He kept telling me over and over and over that he loves me and that I should give him a chance. So I gave in.. And he left me. It was brutal. 

I was very depressed and hurt beyond. And at the same time I was diagnosed with mental illness. I couldn't deal with the whole thing. It was the hardest thing. I did not use you as a rebound nor did I use you as a crutch. None of that. My heart knows the truth. It knows nothing else. The only truth is that I deeply and honestly loved you. My heart was pure as water and it was genuine and as real as the sky. There was absolutely no agenda when I loved you. I loved you even more than J. I loved you in the most deepest purest genuine way. You meant the world to me. And then it all began to fall apart. I broke your trust. I hurt you. Without knowing. When you left me, I was shattered. I couldn't deal with the confusion of not having you anymore. 

And then I began to act insane, I went through temporary insanity because I was dealing with a lot emotionally and feeling completely lost. 

You kept punching me in the gut, repeatedly. Till I fell to the floor. Just wounded and lost and confused. 

It was like... umm. Like I don't know.. Umm.. It was the worst.... I didn't know how to make anything okay.... I couldn't have been angry at you.. Because I still loved you.... I wanted to protect you.. I was torn apart... Inside... I felt like I didn't know how to please you... When you love someone too much, if something hurts them, it hurts you back, if you hurt them, you live in shame, that's the last thing you want, I was in that state, honestly, if you wanted me to give up my life and if it would bring any happiness to you, I would have probably traded my life, I was so weak in love, I deeply loved you, the way I have never loved anyone before.... And I don't think I will ever hate you, there is no hate, there can never be hate, it wasn't your fault, it was my weakness that got the better of me, I am not worthy of you anyway, you deserve much better, I can't be that perfect person, but I will always want the best for you. Sometimes it's hard... I wish you could have read my feelings instead of me having to spell them out for you.... I expected you to feel me, to read me, because my feelings were so deep, that words would have never been enough to tell you how I felt... 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

1 hour ago, Tyler Robinson said:

3 songs helped me

 

 

 

Hello lionel Ritchie 

John Denver Annie's song 

REM - Everybody's hurt 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

This whole set of songs is helping me deal with the lack of self love. 

I'll call it my dope list. 

 

 

 

 

 

Hello lionel Ritchie 

https://youtu.be/62XB9IbMnxQ

 

John Denver Annie's song 

https://youtu.be/C21G2OkHEYo

 

REM - Everybody hurts

https://youtu.be/Y6yUY7M9yfw

 

Forever young 

https://youtu.be/W5guhMw_EH0

 

Gorillaz - feel good Inc 

https://youtu.be/HyHNuVaZJ-k

 

Nelly Furtado - All Good THINGS 

https://youtu.be/4pBo-GL9SRg

 

Now United - Like Me 

https://youtu.be/5NLH7LgKGd4

 

Pink Sweat$ - at my worst 

https://youtu.be/bJZmeIQ9L8A

 

Tavli - Alone in the night 

https://youtu.be/2Y9C-o4_Geo

 

Whisper of memories - inner sadness

https://youtu.be/_UHvZ-Z5f2c

 

 

Mika - relax  take it easy 

https://youtu.be/EVDYmBrl02Q

 

MD Dj - killing me softly 

https://youtu.be/rYZ7R9tE6Wc

 

Phil Collins - Another Day in Paradise

https://youtu.be/Msli4C35FKc

 

Love Story - Andy Williams 

https://youtu.be/7jEaIDqHl74

 

Joan Osborne - One of us

https://youtu.be/aDdOnl0bHO4

 

Domino - GODO

https://youtu.be/9g6fMv_ym9E

 

Forever for you - Hall and Oates

https://youtu.be/OmoOQu-po9E

 

Darren Hayes - Insatiable 

https://youtu.be/9u7hGkL57N8

 

Air Supply - All out of Love

https://youtu.be/JWdZEumNRmI

 

Blackbear - the idea 

https://youtu.be/c_rlPKoIiSY

 

Collective Soul - Run

https://youtu.be/digVbO9-10I

 

 

Edited November 10, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

 

Hello lionel Ritchie 

John Denver Annie's song 

REM - Everybody's hurt 

Gorillaz - feel good Inc 

Nelly Furtado - All Good THINGS 

Now United - Like Me 

Pink Sweat$ - at my worst 

Tavli - Alone in the night 

Whisper of memories - inner sadness

Mika - relax  take it easy 

MD Dj - killing me softly 

Phil Collins - Another Day in Paradise

Love Story - Andy Williams 

Joan Osborne - One of us

Domino - GODO

Darren Hayes - Insatiable 

Air Supply - All out of Love

Blackbear - the idea 

Collective Soul - Run

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I love these songs. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

This space came to my rescue again.