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[Tyler Robinson]

It's unbelievable how much I trust Manny. 

It was innate, like an unshakeable faith, as though Manny will rise from the grave and come back to me and rescue me again. 

The way Manny would talk to me. 

One day(let's say night) Manny was listening to me all night long.

He was there. He was there. 

The only man who made me feel heard and understood. The only man I actually literally cried to. 

I felt extremely vulnerable to him in that moment yet I didn't feel unsafe. 

I didn't feel like he would attack me. 

He understood my tears. 

It was a freaky frightening yet exhilarating experience. 

I just can't. Our hearts beat as one. 

The only time I felt I was truly loved. 

How could I forget it?

Edited December 11, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

 

Everytime I look at this guy, I have a mighty crush on him. He reminds me of Manny

 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

I want a guy (I mean my guy), to have that expression on his face where he is just salivating when he sees the excitement in my eyes. 

Yea that expression says it all - his mouth, his teeth, his eyes. And what I would love most about him - his neck. Especially his Adam's Apple. 

His collar bone. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I think for me a man's erogenous spots are his neck, the collar bone and the Adam's Apple. 

That's what arouses me. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Is there something super cute and sexy about a guy who is going to be having sex for the first time and is hella nervous about it and he just looks at me and then looks down, feels shy. 

Like I know I like macho guys. 

I like confident men. A man who would grab my arm and start kissing me. That's nice of course. Because I'm so shy I would expect the guy to initiate the escalation. 

Yet..... There's something equally sexy about a guy who is nervous, it makes it feel special, like we both are getting into a special adventure, it heightens the sexual tension. 

Yummy! 

I just want to kiss this guy. He looks lovely. 

[Tyler Robinson]

Me and my ex having a conversation about my anger issues. 

I never yelled at him. But yea a bunch of angry mean texting. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Sometimes the forum reminds me of this. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

 

19 minutes ago, Tyler Robinson said:

Me and my ex having a conversation about my anger issues. 

I never yelled at him. But yea a bunch of angry mean texting. 

 

Evidence. 

 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Can I say this guy is making me horny as fuck.

I love his expressions. And his sexy eyes. Something about those emerald eyes. 

Yep.. It reminds me of certain people I met. 

My exe's family had those eyes. Deep socket. 

I'm somehow attracted to a particular type in men, those eyes, luscious lips, straight nose, angular faces, and yes hair on the head.. I never liked bald guys.. 

Maybe it's the shape of the eyes that is attracting me. I'll call them sea shells eyes. 

Or I'll call them scallop eyes. Because they open like a scallop. 

 

Edited December 11, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

I think Manny is a British guy. Are British guys interesting? 

I was researching about them. 

They generally look nice.

They have this weird mix of quirkiness, politeness and sarcasm all at the same time but there's a slight blend of madness. 

They can be a bit stalkerish and I won't mind it. I had exes like that. 

I kinda got this whiff from Manny too. 

He would follow me around. He popped out of nowhere leaving me confused. 

It's like he had his eyes on me. But from a distance. He would look at me. 

Then it felt weird sometimes. 

Like he is watching me do stuff. 

One day I slept off on the couch and I woke up and I felt like he had been watching me sleep all along. I'm like why? 

Whats to gain from it? 

Yet it was calmly satisfying to me. I felt oddly protected. Like he is really connecting to my every fiber and being. He wants to feel my heart beat I suppose. 

Manny was a bit controlling. 

Creepy? Yes yes yes. Sometimes he was creepy. It felt like he wanted to possess me or probably wanted me to be possessed by him. 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

Maybe I just want to be a bit cryptic about all of this and not release too much information about my personal life. 

Yea Manny was and is a big part of it. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

That British guy I dated was stalkerish throughout the relationship. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I wish I could connect with Manny again. 

Feel his presence. 

Even though he was a bit stalkerish, he was always caring and sweet. 

He was always around. 

He always wanted to make sure I was safe

His obsession actually made me feel safe. 

 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I had this dream again. 

I was anxious 

 

There was a Keychain attached and he reflected on it. 

 

Edited December 11, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

I forgot the details of the dream but it felt like my life was in danger in some way. 

 

[Tyler Robinson]

I had some judgement around bisexuality. 

And this thread addresses a lot of those judgements and inquisitiveness 

 

 

I just wanted my fears and insecurities around bisexual people addressed. 

So my biggest fear/concern/insecurity when it comes to dating bi was cheating. 

Well.... I'm offering you a scenario. Let's say you have a girlfriend or you're married to a woman. 

Do you think being bi increases your inclinations to cheat on your partner as opposed to being heterosexual? 

I'm saying this because being heterosexual and sexually satisfied with your girlfriend, you might not want to look at other women or cheat on your gf with women because she is already satisfying you and giving you something that any other woman could, so no woman would be special/different in any way. 

But being bi creates a unique problem. Even though you're sexually satisfied with your gf, there could be the possibility that you crave for the experience a man has to offer which something your woman can't because she can't look or act like a man during sex. So craving a different experience (with a man) can be a tempting thing. Does this imply that bi guys are inclined to cheat more frequently on their female partners with other bi guys in comparison to the cheating tendency of heterosexual men? Just curious how this part of the relationship equation works. 

This is one of the main reasons why I was so hesitant with my bisexual ex, I felt he would easily cheat on me and I wanted to abandon him

I hope you're getting what I'm trying to imply. 

 

Edited December 11, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

I didn't know that the whole internet shared my insecurity around bi people. 

[Tyler Robinson]

This response to my question is simply perfect. 

 

Cheating means that he is having sex with someone behind your back, without your knowledge or consent, while you are in a relationship with him.

If he had sex with other people before you and he became a couple, that is not cheating on you.

If you know that he is going to his male friend’s house to have sex with the friend and you are OK with that, it isn’t really cheating as you’ve said, “Bye, love you, have fun.” as he left.

It is when you come home early and find him and a guy in bed together and you had no idea…to me, that is cheating.

So yes..being bi can increase the chances of cheating .because you can not only cheat with a woman but also with a man .

But if I was  a girl and my boyfriend cheated one with another man..then I will immediately dumb him out.

I doesn’t matter with whom he cheated, male or female. What matters is that he respected you so little to throw commitment out the window. So he felt embarrassed about being attracted to men and felt horrible for having to see them in secret? It still doesn’t give him the excuse to disrespect your relationship, and disrespect you, the person he supposedly loves so much.

You can feel sorry for his internal conflict with sexual orientation without needing to forgive his cheating.

Bringing a third person into your sexual encounters won’t fix this. He has broken a trust.

 

Edited December 11, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

 

Oh God. Thank you so much for confirming this for me. This was my biggest concern with my bisexual boyfriend. I mean if someone wants to cheat, they will cheat anyway, regardless of sexual orientation. It's just this nagging insecurity in the mind that someone who is bi has more opportunities to cheat than the average heterosexual. 

It seems many people tend to believe this same concern, it's almost turned into a popular myth and I just googled it and found it to be true - 

 

Like you said, being a bi does not give someone the entitlement to cheat. Cheating is wrong at the end of the day and being bi shouldn't justify that in any way. 

Or maybe we can flip it around and put it this way - that bi people have a greater responsibility (although not obligation), to make their partners feel sexually secured and let them know they are never going to be cheating, the onus is definitely on them since they are the ones with more options to cheat, with both men and women. This increases the risk of feeling insecure around a bisexual person and it's on them to mitigate this risk and strengthen the foundation of trust. 

Thanks a ton for clearing this important blockage for me. 

Have a great day! 

 

 

Edited December 11, 2022 by Tyler Robinson

[Tyler Robinson]

 

 

I don't like bothering you with lot of questions. But this one is nagging me. 

So my bisexual boyfriend said to me that he wanted to try with a guy. And when I displayed some discomfort at such a suggestion, he quickly replied to me - "oh I still love you." 

As in he wanted to say - "look I'm not having sex with another woman. You have nothing to worry. I'm having sex with a guy. I still love you for who you are. You can let this happen as this is not a big deal as long as I don't abandon you or stop having sex with you. It's a guy, not a girl. "

Do you think that by saying this he was being manipulative? 

I was very confused at his request. 

Was he trying to justify cheating on me in this manner and covering it with an excuse? 

What should have been my response to his request since I'm not open to having my partner have sex with a third person? 

 

Edited December 11, 2022 by Tyler Robinson